shabbycat's MedHelp Blogs Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en WHY Why do I still feel so damn awful....................I actually started feeling so much worse almost shabbycat Sun, 13 Jul 2008 22:23:14 -0400 Still clean I am at 32 days today. I thought a few days ago I was gonna use. I even bought some stuff right befor shabbycat Tue, 08 Jul 2008 13:28:18 -0400 F&#@ this sh#$!!!!! Why when we do something good does something bad have to come along and kick us when we are trying so shabbycat Fri, 04 Jul 2008 23:15:32 -0400 WOW I had my first day of being grateful I wasnt high!!!! Yesterday was the best day ever since I began this journey. I was honored by being present for the bi shabbycat Wed, 02 Jul 2008 16:30:28 -0400 Soooooooo Depressed tonight I cant bear this another minute...........................its what i keep saying, this is the worst. shabbycat Sun, 29 Jun 2008 23:29:22 -0400 day 24 Ok well I really expected things to be better than what they r right now............................I shabbycat Sun, 29 Jun 2008 07:56:16 -0400 day 21 Yep, I made it woohoo, its not ****!!! I still cannot sleep. I am still sick!!! This will be the seco shabbycat Thu, 26 Jun 2008 06:20:21 -0400 METHADONE :THE EVIL CYCLE Well I didnt go back to methadone clinic..................not yet atleast. I am in such a bad depress shabbycat Fri, 20 Jun 2008 07:47:29 -0400 foo hey now don't make a sound Say have you heard the news today? One flag was taken down To raise ano shabbycat Fri, 20 Jun 2008 00:09:03 -0400 another perfect song for how i feel now i still recall the taste of your tears echoing your voice just like the ringing in my ears my fav shabbycat Thu, 19 Jun 2008 23:11:14 -0400 this song keeps going thru my head....................... Chasing Cars lyrics We'll do it all Everything On our own We don't need Anything Or an shabbycat Thu, 19 Jun 2008 22:20:25 -0400 headed back to methadone??? I am on day 14 and I am as asick as i was when i started this freakin journey!!! I am considering goi shabbycat Thu, 19 Jun 2008 02:37:50 -0400 METHADONE IS THE DEBIL!!!!!!!!!!!!! Part one of MY journey Well I am on day 4 and let me say this isnt getting much easier. :( I am unhappy totally miserable shabbycat Mon, 09 Jun 2008 19:57:34 -0400 feelin horrible already again.......... I took that methadone today at about 11 and i am already sweaty nausiated and feeling a bit jumpy. I shabbycat Thu, 05 Jun 2008 20:11:33 -0400 This is getting OLD!!!!!!!!!!! I am sitting here wishing someone would respond to me (my presence) any posts Ive made. I feel so des shabbycat Thu, 05 Jun 2008 00:36:16 -0400