yelsea's MedHelp Blogs https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/724471 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en I only have 15 days left! And 7 pounds. I go up and down so much. Probably because I weigh myself at different times. I'm going yelsea Thu, 15 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/54173/I-only-have-15-days-left https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/54173/I-only-have-15-days-left Where'd it go? Somehow, I did the impossible. I retained my boobs and booty, and got some stomach and leg weight off yelsea Wed, 14 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53887/Whered-it-go https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53887/Whered-it-go Estimated I'm sick of smelling like smoke, though. yelsea Wed, 14 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53880/Estimated https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53880/Estimated But I feel good! Haven't made a lot of headway today, but I feel really good about myself. My boobs look awesome, smal yelsea Mon, 12 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53289/But-I-feel-good https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53289/But-I-feel-good All I had left Was four cigarettes left, so... that's all I smoked. I'm broke, but my friend at school told me his d yelsea Mon, 12 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53281/All-I-had-left https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53281/All-I-had-left Failure I am. I feel. Bad. yelsea Sun, 11 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53009/Failure https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53009/Failure Cold Decreases my chances of going out and smoking. 2 during the day, 1 on the way to NA, one on the way b yelsea Sun, 11 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53007/Cold https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/53007/Cold Overeating hurts. I have a lot of stomach pain, but for some reason I can't stop eating anyway. One would think this wo yelsea Sat, 10 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/52818/Overeating-hurts https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/52818/Overeating-hurts Only counting cigarettes now Because I don't really want to give up caffiene ATM, so why track it. Waking up at 4:00 really cuts yelsea Sat, 10 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/52814/Only-counting-cigarettes-now https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/52814/Only-counting-cigarettes-now Not really going after it I haven't been as adament (obviously) as the first couple of days. My jeans are pretty tight though. yelsea Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/52499/Not-really-going-after-it https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/52499/Not-really-going-after-it Amends I made amends at one of my previous jobs to the general manager, and tomorrow I'm going to go back an yelsea Fri, 09 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/52494/Amends https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/52494/Amends Am I physically addicted? I went outside to smoke before bed last night for what I think was the first time (I have a memory th yelsea Thu, 08 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/52194/Am-I-physically-addicted https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/52194/Am-I-physically-addicted First day back to school My nerves were pretty tight this morning when my schedule was not working out. I didn't get the class yelsea Wed, 07 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/51946/First-day-back-to-school https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/51946/First-day-back-to-school Whatever I have like, 4 cigarettes left, but hopefully my brother will buy me another pack. I definitely don't yelsea Tue, 06 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/51650/Whatever https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/51650/Whatever Waist I think my waist was bigger cause I had just eaten dinner. Just sayin'. yelsea Sun, 04 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/51252/Waist https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/51252/Waist Looking Forward I'm assuming that I won't do anymore than I did yesterday. I might smoke a couple more because I'm go yelsea Mon, 05 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/51243/Looking-Forward https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/51243/Looking-Forward Forgot I didn't get on yesterday, but I had three cigarettes and a few cups of coffee and some soda. It's an yelsea Sun, 04 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/51242/Forgot https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/51242/Forgot Goal weight I guess I'm already underweight according to my BMI, but I've recently gained weight and I don't like yelsea Sat, 03 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/50886/Goal-weight https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/50886/Goal-weight Caffiene Is all I had. No cigarettes. I guess I'm going to count everything because I haven't done coke in alm yelsea Sat, 03 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/50876/Caffiene https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/50876/Caffiene Not today So far no drugs except caffiene and I'm sure I will smoke later. Let's try five? I'll report if it's yelsea Fri, 02 Jan 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/50621/Not-today https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/50621/Not-today