kellygirll's MedHelp Blogs Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en wtf is wit these cravings i thought cravings came and went why are mine here a lot in my brain a constant fight with myself for kellygirll Sat, 05 Jul 2014 04:37:53 -0400 betters things are really getting better slowly but surly they are hitting tons of meetings and they really h kellygirll Fri, 27 Jun 2014 06:38:03 -0400 today i wudda had 80 days clean if i didn't screw up grrrrr but this relapse has opened my eyes to a lot a kellygirll Thu, 05 Jun 2014 06:14:26 -0400 60 days today am I'm blowing it :( kellygirll Fri, 16 May 2014 08:10:33 -0400 oh crap here comes the cravings/urges again f uck f uck f uck grrrrr man i hate this s hit no trigger this ti kellygirll Fri, 09 May 2014 15:40:15 -0400 therapy session had a real good session with holly yesterday she is urging me to tell the hubs about my addiction i w kellygirll Fri, 09 May 2014 06:56:59 -0400 humingbirdies yesterday i sat in the garden for about a haf hour and watched my lil hummies fly crazily all around kellygirll Thu, 08 May 2014 06:51:06 -0400 hummers sat in my garden today for like 20-30 mins with the hummingbirds flying all around me they are crazy kellygirll Wed, 07 May 2014 16:55:54 -0400 wow weeeeeee holy shite i have 50 days FIFTY DAYS I'm so happy i feel so good I'm so proud of myself that i have t kellygirll Tue, 06 May 2014 06:24:07 -0400 whew wow i made it thru my second time wanting to use this time was extra difficult cuz i really really wa kellygirll Sun, 04 May 2014 05:08:53 -0400 yesterday i had my relapse all planned out i was going to my friends on monday and get some pils but i went to kellygirll Fri, 02 May 2014 05:46:50 -0400 cravings uuuuggggg they are so bad today the worse and i have this plan in my head of what i will do it goes l kellygirll Thu, 01 May 2014 07:54:08 -0400 uuuuggggg..... so today is day 44 I'm having a hard time have wicked cravings omg and i tell ya if i wasn't on subox kellygirll Wed, 30 Apr 2014 07:27:46 -0400 i see the light finally i can't believe that i am at 25 days it feels so freakin good I'm so proud of myself had a little sca kellygirll Fri, 11 Apr 2014 06:32:13 -0400 wow day 17 today i day 17 holy crap that is great just great I'm feeling pretty good too but my addict brain is kellygirll Thu, 03 Apr 2014 06:34:27 -0400 day 2 today is day two of no pills very proud of myself very scared this is just awful it just ***** this m kellygirll Wed, 19 Mar 2014 06:33:52 -0400