https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/915369 Medical communities and forums staffed by doctors from leading medical centers. Over 325 forums and communities providing medical information and medical help. en I finally got a job interview, it's with Tarpon Energy Services. Thing is, if I do get this job it's rBoulet Sun, 06 Dec 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/142331/Job-interview https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/142331/Job-interview Don't know why but I just feel really angry all of a sudden. Like I'm shaking and sweating I'm so ang rBoulet Fri, 27 Nov 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/140180/Anger https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/140180/Anger My girlfriend's mother passed away today. I acted as happy and supportive as I could but I'm pretty rBoulet Sat, 07 Nov 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/135131/And-yet-we-hide-it https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/135131/And-yet-we-hide-it I was supposed to have a therapist appointment today but I was feeling so anxious about talking to hi rBoulet Fri, 06 Nov 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/134954/Therapist https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/134954/Therapist I've developed this probably irrational fear/worry about all the people around me. I don't mean like, rBoulet Tue, 03 Nov 2009 00:00:00 -0500 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/134255/Developed-this-fear https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/134255/Developed-this-fear I have a theory test tomorrow I forgot to study for. Guess I'll do it on the train to school tomorro rBoulet Sun, 01 Nov 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/133681/Forgot-to-study https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/133681/Forgot-to-study Don't know why but I'm feeling really angry at nothing in particular, and I'm still depressed. I'm g rBoulet Fri, 23 Oct 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/131526/Punched-the-wall https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/131526/Punched-the-wall I was so anxious before, during, and after the appointment. She only really asked demographic questio rBoulet Fri, 16 Oct 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/129878/Had-my-appointment https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/129878/Had-my-appointment Well I'm still anxious, but I'm not all doom and gloom today. Went to school, had a few laughs, came rBoulet Fri, 09 Oct 2009 03:49:23 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/127970/Still-anxious-but-feeling-better https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/127970/Still-anxious-but-feeling-better I have my intake appointment on the 16th. I've been on the waiting list for almost a year. My anxie rBoulet Wed, 07 Oct 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/127615/Finally-got-an-appointment https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/127615/Finally-got-an-appointment I need to get my drivers license by the time I'm done school in November so I can work. I've been way rBoulet Thu, 01 Oct 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/126006/Drivers-License https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/126006/Drivers-License Like the right amount of good. Went to school. Studied a bit. Watched a couple movies with Kayce. Al rBoulet Thu, 24 Sep 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/124222/Feeling-rather-good https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/124222/Feeling-rather-good If I still feel fine tomorrow morning I'm going to try and go to school. If I start feeling under the rBoulet Tue, 22 Sep 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/123672/Feeling-better-tonight https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/123672/Feeling-better-tonight Discharged today. Dunno what to say, I gave up on Thursday and apparently I'm lucky to be alive. I do rBoulet Mon, 21 Sep 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/123392/Hospital https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/123392/Hospital I just spent 30 minutes yelling at my TV to the point where I got dizzy and punching myself over a vi rBoulet Tue, 15 Sep 2009 00:03:40 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/121481/Ive-lost-my-marbles https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/121481/Ive-lost-my-marbles I just noticed that most of the little periods where my mood changes for a few days then goes back to rBoulet Mon, 14 Sep 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/121442/Weekends https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/121442/Weekends I started having this weird feeling since about 1am at night. I don't know how to describe it in a fe rBoulet Sat, 12 Sep 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/121091/Weird-feeling https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/121091/Weird-feeling I swear I can hear a voice saying "Die" over and over. I resist, but mostly because if I did it righ rBoulet Sun, 06 Sep 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/119474/A-voice https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/119474/A-voice Ok so I noticed today (which is actually the day after the spot on the mood tracker that I'm putting rBoulet Sat, 05 Sep 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/119443/High-energy-and-depressed https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/119443/High-energy-and-depressed So I finally got my medical records in the mail 7 months after I asked for them. 19 pages from a bunc rBoulet Fri, 04 Sep 2009 00:00:00 -0400 https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/119019/Medical-Records https://www.medhelp.org/user_journals/show/119019/Medical-Records