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Dealing with Money is Stressful

Oct 19, 2009 - 0 comments

I am currently in the process of trying to find a place downtown to live all while balancing the lack of money that I have.  I had to shell out 500 bucks this weekend because the simple act of getting my winter tires put on pointed out that I had something wrong with my power steering, my poor dog is having problems with his knee, and then this weekend I discovered another tumor on his leg.  All of these little things cost which I should have but don't.  Plus, I want to live downtown to shorten my commute time, but those apartments are crazy expensive!!!  GRRRRR!!!  I guess the only reason I am even telling you guys about this is because this would probably be a time that I would just throw my hands up and go out for beer and wings.  And, lets just face it, an Optifast shake doesn't compare at all to beer and wings.  I did manage to walk to the GO station this morning instead of driving there.  The thing is, when I moved into the apartment I currently am in, that was part of the deal.  It was close enough to walk.  But did I? No...My boyfriend pointed out that it takes me just as long to warm up my car, drive to the station, find a parking spot, and walk to the platform as it would if I would just get off my lazy butt and walk to the station like I said I would to begin with.  Of course, we don't give him the satisfaction of knowing he is right, but alas, he is right. UGH...which just aggrevates me even more.  Anyways, I guess I am just cranky today...don't know why.

Stress and Weight Loss

Oct 14, 2009 - 2 comments

Five weeks have come and gone and actually haven't been that bad.  This week I actually lost more than I was expecting...which is always a good thing.  I even started talking to a lady at the hospital who meets the same time I do.  She is almost finished with her 12 weeks and will start transitioning next week.  She has lost 40 pounds in 12 weeks and hopes to lose 20 more.  The odd thing is she said that after 12 weeks the smell of food has actually started to nauseate her.  I think that's odd since the scent of food, even food I would never eat, smells so appetizing to me I can barely stand it.  I guess that will make it easier to transition if you don't crave anything.  I also had to go see my family doctor today because I have been experiencing some vertigo.  Apparently this is not at all diet related, and I have some misplaced crystals inside my ear.  Low and behold I have yet another illness that can't be treated.  I have to wait for this inner ear thing to straighten itself out.  Lots of fluids they say.  Although, lately I drink way more fluids than I have ever drank daily.  I'll keep you posted.

1 month down, 2 to go...and Thanksgiving right around the corner...YIKES

Oct 07, 2009 - 0 comments

Well the title says it.  I've officially been on a diet, WITHOUT CHEATING, for a whole month.  It has paid off because I have lost 15.6 lbs and I haven't done a lick of exercise.  So, with that, I'd say the diet is going pretty well.  I worry because this weekend is Thanksgiving.  The whole point of this holiday is to get together with friends and family to be thankful of the HUGE meal you get to eat.  It is starting to get colder and I'm kind of hoping that I will burn more calories per day trying to keep warm.  What do you think?  By the way, I dropped off some clothes at the tailor today.  Do you know that it costs 50 dollars to get a zipper fixed on a coat?  If it wasn't a 300 dollar coat, I would just toss it.  I can buy a brand new coat for 50 bucks.  UGH!  It doesn't help that I am trying to save money so that I can become a permanent resident.  Wow, I just realized that I am kind of bitchy.  Maybe it's the period, or maybe its the book that I just got from the library, "***** of the house".  Hmmm....don't know

Aunt Flow Decided to Show Up

Oct 05, 2009 - 0 comments


Today is the first day I've been on the rag since I've started this diet.  We'll see how it goes.  The funny thing is I started two days late.  Now, normally two days is nothing to get all worked up over, except that I was a little nervous I jinxed myself.  Steve and I were together right after my period last month and then, as usual, he went back to Florida.  Well, last week, I went for my weigh-in and I had asked the doctor how being on so few calories didn't slow down my metabolism.  He informed me that it will eventually slow down.  In fact, it could slow down to the point where your hair stops growing, your nails stop growing, your breathing slows down...survival...even your period stops and women have a brief moment of worry thinking they are pregnant.  I assured him that was not an issue for me since my boyfriend lives in was those words that I thought has been the doom of me.  "Luckily" today, I found that I had not jinxed myself.  I am not pregnant.  However, I will now get to spend the rest of the day halved over with some substantial crampage going on.  Why couldn't this have gotten itself out of my system over the weekend when it was supposed to?  I guess this will be a good time to be grateful that I have nothing but CHOCOLATE shakes to drink.  I'll keep you posted on how everything pans out.