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Feb 01, 2013 - 14 comments










I just got back from a surprise Dr visit. I went and had my beta checked yesterday and they called me to come in for the results. They never call to come in unless it is bad. They gave me an ultrasound, I am 5 weeks according to the ultrasound. Just the sac was seen. That could be right because I don't know when my period was in December. It was somewhere between the 18-25. Well then they start asking all these questions about me and fibroids. have I ever had them etc. Well I see the Dr after and he is stumped. he said my HCG results were - but the sac is there. I have a repeat HCG test monday. Maybe the lab messed up, and a repeat U/S on the 15th. Then he tells me It looks like I have a tumor on my uterus :/ I came home and immediately took a HPT and bright and BFP as ever! I don't know what to think. I can not stop crying. Anyone heard of anything like this????

What I have been doing the 6 months I was MIA

Sep 23, 2012 - 7 comments

It has been about 6 months or so since I have been an active member on here. It was just getting overwhelming for me. I felt I needed to step back and focus on my children I do have and my marriage. We were not trying, but not preventing either. Needless to say I have not got pregnant in almost a year. I have had a few chemicals, but that's it. I started to get worried. SO we decided to try again, this is the 1st month and I hope we caught the egg. Lord knows we tried hard this month. I am going to be 33 in a few weeks and I feel my biological clock ticking. Some might say that is still young, but the way I look at it is once you hit 35 your chances of getting and having a healthy pregnancy go down, well since I was 28 I have had 11 miscarriages and many more chemicals soooo that means I already have a hard time and it is only going to get worse. So here we go ready to try and hope to have a healthy pregnancy soon.

I went back to work in a daycare and I think that makes it harder, I love the babies soo much<3 My Hair accessory business has taken off and I hope to have a store front in the next 5 years :)

Don't know what to do!

Jan 30, 2012 - 7 comments

day care


4 year old

I need some help. I work in a day care and my 4 year old recently started going there due to our babysitter (MIL) flaking out on us. To try and cut the story down here is the short part of how we got here. I went back to work the last week of November, only because my MIL was suppose to be moving down here and told me to find a job, she would take my son to and from school. My old job was hiring and hired me on the spot. Everything was going good until right before Christmas when she decided she was not moving. I was like oh crap what am I going to do, we had a couple family members helping us out until a few weeks ago and I had to pull him out of his pre school and put him in my day care center. I get half off, but it is still $85 a week. He HATES it!!!! I feel so bad, he cries and cries and screams for me. It just makes it all bad because I am in the same building. I am torn and don't know what to do. My Dad can watch him Mon, Tu., and Wed. I need someone Thursday and Friday. I mean he is almost 5 and cries like a 2 year old. It hurts me and makes me mad all at the same time. He is not a big crier, but today he cried from the minute he woke up to just right now when I said he can stay with my Dad. One of the biggest complains he has is nap time. He does not nap at home, and he is forced to lay down from 12:30-2:30. He does not have to go to sleep, but he has to stay on the mat and be quiet. Ugghhhh I don't know what to do, I can not keep coming home mad and stressed like this. I feel like I am going to go crazy!!!! Any tips, or advice will be greatly appreciated!

Just case I get a BFP

Jan 23, 2012 - 1 comments

Today I am 9DPO. Feeling super duper tired, and sensitive. I have had a headache for the past 2 days that is coming and going which is a good sign. I am thinking positive!!!! Please oh please let me have a BFP in a couple days and not let AF show up on the 25th or 26th!!!!!