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Yes.

Oct 07, 2009 - 1 comments
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Looks like I've made it.

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Milestones.

Sep 29, 2009 - 0 comments
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My internal clock is busted and so is this chart. AND THAT ANNOYS ME!! But everything does, because it says I went 0 days without smoking, but I really went .. 1 day 9 hours, most of those hours were waking, only one horrible sleep... 33 hours. And it says 0 days clean on my profile. Screw that, I am peaking mad, my friend upset me.. Irritation is running high right now...

Edit: There I lied on the chart, I hope they are happy, but I went 33 hours and it said 0 days?!?!?! and it was really bothering me. I am not thinking rationally at all. I am freaking out irritation wise.

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Doing better.

Sep 28, 2009 - 0 comments
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I tortured myself "cutting back". I thought I was in mild withdrawal and the best it could get, so ween 'til it stopped hurting, well pfft! Turns out that was moderate withdrawal and I wasn't making any progress at all! A week of free, pointless withdrawal.  It stopped being such a HUGE struggle once I swore I would never smoke again.

And since the woman's days cramps are over and the withdrawals feel much like my pills, I went easy on the opiates today too ;)

I put no anxiety, because I always have a little. Today was pretty manageable. I did cry in Walmart though so I put depression loool.

My name is Erin, and I am a nicotine addict.
I have stopped nicotine for 12 hours, 32 minutes and 24 seconds (0 days).
I've saved 1 hour and 44 minutes of my life.


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Ohhh

Sep 27, 2009 - 0 comments
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Sunday, morning.

Well yesterdays panic and sore knees were just PMS! lol I bet a lot of women have out of whack charts once a month.
I have been up for 8 hours and have only smoked 3 cigarettes so far and they were in a row. I picture the constant cravings as a monster (he is dark purple up close and black while trying to trick my subconscious), I told him he can have whatever he wants but no cigarettes. He has asked so many times in these 4 completely smoke free hours that I yelled at him out loud. He asked for cheese once, felt exactly the same but for cheese. That was weird lol but I gave it to him.. Cramps aren't helping help.

With the cigarettes I am getting into the all important mind frame. The most important part of quitting. It may seem uneventful to you but I have made loads of progress with this so far.
I used to (last week) secretly not want to quit anything. Right now I am just coping, practicing and learning ways to keep my sanity.
And the pills have been weened from 7 at a time to 2 at a time, which is awesome.

I will write more before bed. And add the remainder of my daily consumption.

Night:
I made it to 6 hours without a cigarette. I am testing the waters and listening to the nicotine monster. If I get to know his tricks, I will be able to cope more effectively.

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