I find myself trying to make other people happy but when it comes to myself i just can't. Excited but also very nervous about up-coming SSI hearing. The feelings of self harm have not been real strong today. I hope that continues! Can't feel good about myself from the years of being ripped apart. My daughter (my rock) is moveing to Fl next week for nursing school. Happy for her and very proud. But am going to miss her. She is all i have that understands me.