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crappy a$$ week...

Apr 11, 2012 - 0 comments

hurting, hurting and hurting. got laid off from a part time job... feel like sludge, like I've been run through a wood chipper... ugh.. everything hurts-- chest pains, palpitations, jaw pain, feet & hands swelling-- arms and hands hurting so bad it wakes me up at night-- even after taking Ambien and Valium...
Finally decided to apply for medical disability... I'm so tired of hurting like hell all the time, feeling lost in my own mind-- and using every bit of my energy pretending it's not happening. It's just wait and see now.

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pain - worst i've had in a long time

Mar 30, 2012 - 0 comments

This is synopsis of last few days: joints hurt- arms worst - bad enough to wake me from sleep several times.... I've also noticed some fine motor skills issues-- dropping things-- alot of things, errors in typing, memory issues ( I know I asked my husband the same questions several times-- couldn't remember the answers he'd given) he pointed out to me the repetition- when he got tired of telling me he same thing over and over...

I've had some transient balance problems too for the last week, maybe... seem to stumble, stray from straight path-- almost as if I were a fumbling drunk!

My vision is often really affected-- blurry, can't make out words/etc. unless i had on my 2.00 reading glasses ( from pharmacy-- OTC)-- eyes have felt dry, itchy- grainy-- this probably from the pollens in the air.  

The insomnia, restlessness last 2 or 3 days... has been worse. Out of AMBIEN til 1st, been doubling up on my VALIUM to make up for it...

Also had another episode of choking at night-- felt like breathing thru thick spider web of sticky glue-- could hear raspy, crackling sounds as i breathed in and out... finally got better after I got up coughing so hard I vomited-- thick, sticky, foamy phlegm and some undigested food.... was rotten night ( this was night before last)--- even hurt bad in my calves and feet...
woke myself with moans and cries of agony a few times. Got so bad- hubby went to sleep in guest room. NEVER has this ever happened before.

I slept only 4 hours this morning-- from 6 til 10... after having been up or about 20+ hours.
I spent most of the day working around the house and yard--- trying to get it all set up to put on market for sale. Pushed myself too hard last few days, i know... but under pressure to get this house listed and sold. My back -- lumbar/sacral and both hips have been excruciatingly painful-- took 2 hydrocodone--- very little relief.... I had to go to the grocery store earlier, I almost screamed out in pain just trying to get into and out of car... Used a cart to lean heavily on-- walked and picked up items very slowly and gingerly... even had cashier ask if I was ok........ I felt-- and moved like a 90 year old...

Going to take a FLEXERIL here very soon and go to bed... in guest room-- hopefully so i don't disturb dear hubby-- as he is working nights now-- and has to sleep during the daytime....

BTW--- i haven't expressed much of this to hubby at all.... He worries too much. And I don't wanna scare him......

03/30/2012 @ 12:20 am



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ugh!

Mar 25, 2012 - 0 comments

ice cream for desert last night......

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Ugh !!!

Mar 24, 2012 - 0 comments

just felt like total crap !! Tired, achy- all over, my arms (elbows) and hands were the worst !! OMG Such burning, aching, shooting, heavy-feelings-- just intense on the pain level-- maybe 9 --- took several Valium, Tramadol, Acetaminophen, nothing really helped-- just KINDA made it semi- tolerable-- with several times of me just breaking into tears from breakthrough pain....Also wore my hand /wrist braces for most of the day--- didn't help much at all... Have another PCP appointment on the 12th of April...
Will see what comes of that.

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