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Very Light Spotting

Dec 19, 2009 - 0 comments

I missed a pill once this week, so my cycle might be off a little. Seeing Linda on Tuesday, so I'll talk to her about the issues I've been having.

Pretty neutral day

Dec 18, 2009 - 0 comments

Not much to comment on, except the last few nights in a row I've been dreaming about rats.


Dec 17, 2009 - 0 comments

Depressed and anxious today. I didn't want to do anything and was guilted into decorating, family trying to force me to be cheerful. I lost my temper, after trying for a while to gracefully say I was finished, I needed to stop, I just wasn't in the mood. It was too much.

First Day of Therapy

Dec 16, 2009 - 0 comments

I really like M. We didn't get to do "therapy" today, it was more like filling out the forms for my record, but so far so good. It was nice to talk about things on a more personal, more broad level than what I talk about with my pdoc or my support group.

Of course, now I'm really tired. And on the negative front, I had a lot of problems keeping my patience with my mom today -- she was playing "I'm in pain but I don't want to really do anything about it" before I left, which ratcheted my anxiety up a notch or ten. Then I had a terrible binge: two McChicken Sandwiches, then two Wendy's Jr. Bacon Cheeseburgers.

Talking to M today was the first time that I told a professional that I was a compulsive eater. Hopefully we'll be able to work on that!