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Just Depressed

Dec 15, 2009 - 0 comments

No particular reason. Lying on the couch literally forcing myself by sheer will not to cry.

Mixed Day

Dec 14, 2009 - 0 comments

I was anxious and just pushed to total agitation and anxiety by mom's manic behavior. Ended up taking my full dose of Xanax, which I haven't in a while, and now I'm really sleepy and down. I really want to take a nap, but we "have" to decorate tonight. I have absolutely no "holiday spirit" this year. I'm just looking forward to the food, the presents, and feeling like an *** because I have no money to even send cards to my family.


Dec 13, 2009 - 0 comments

Word for the day. I just don't care about anything one way or the other. Complete apathy. A little tired, but... don't really want to take a nap. Hungry, but don't want to get up and get something to eat. Blah.

Freaking out today.

Dec 11, 2009 - 0 comments

VERY anxious today, but I hate to call it manic. No, I do have to call it manic, because my thoughts are racing and I feel like I need to get a million things done, but I can't get ANYTHING done!