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My healing VBAC

Jan 04, 2014 - 1 comments

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Well everything started Tuesday October 1 I had contractions from then on on and off for the rest of the week. We made four trips to the hospital an birth center to get checked out the last one beeing Friday morning and I was 2 cm 70% effaced andat 0 station. I went to try to lay down the night of October 8th because we had a doctors appointment the next morning at 10:30 little did I know I wouldn't get to bed. I started having regular contractions starting at 1 am so bad that I couldn't sleep so I tried taking a shower and that made it worse. Brandan called Rae our doula and let her know what was going on and she told me to try to rest and see what happened. We were waiting on the bloody show to let me know I was at least 5 cm before heading into the birth center. Around 7 am it finally happened so Brandan called Rae and we were told to head to the birth center to get checked. Then all of a sudden I felt the need to push and Brandan and I both got worried ans we called Rae. She told us to get to the birth center asap so off we went. It was a 45 minute drive to the birth center and the urge to push kept getting stronger so much so I was screaming at Brandan. We got about 20 minutes from the house and I felt a bulge and I thought she was coming out in the car all of a sudden my water busted. I looked at Brandan in awe and told him to call Rae she then got on the phone with me and talked to me so I would stop screaming and breath. She told me if I didnt stop screaming Brenna would be born in the car.We flew into the parking lot at the birth center and I very carefully saddled into the exam room to get get checked out. When Marcia my midwife checked me I was 10 cm 100% effaced and at a plus 3 station Brenna was crowning already. Marcia looked at rae and told her there was no way we were getting to the hospital before she came and then looked at mne and told me the next time I felt the urge to push to push. Maybe 20 minutes later with only 12 pushes Brenna Rose Smith came into the world weighing 8 lbs 8 oz and 20 12 inches long in the exam room of Natural Beginning birth center. With her daddy, big sister Naomi, Rae our doula, Marcia the midwife and three nurses in the room to greet her. The first thing that I thought when she came out and Marcia handed her to me as oh my God I did it! After I asked her if she was really a girl I asked Marcia if I tore and I hadn't. The only complication I had was my placenta hadn't delivered so we had to do a manual extraction and I worried if I was going to be ok. I asked Rae if I was ok and she told me I would be fine she and Marcia held my hands through the whole process. After two and a half years of learning educating and planning and 9 months of waiting I had my natural VBAC. I am so thankful for everyone who supported me and stood behind me in my journey and I hope to serve as an inspiration for other moms who want a VBAC birth.


24 to 18 in 3 months

Dec 26, 2011 - 2 comments

I am so excited not sure how much weight I have lost since I have no scale but I know I went from a  size 24 jean to a size 18 jean in 3 months. I can now fit into all but 1 pair of prepregnancy jeans. I am so proud of myself. Now to just get a scale so I can see how much I have lost.

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Truth about Naomi's Birth Story

Nov 09, 2011 - 9 comments

I have to write this information now after a little over a year of thinking about and dealing with the events leading up to my unnecessary c-section. I went through only 11 hrs of labor with my first child before being told 1 hr after finally getting an epidural that she would not fit and I would have to have a c-section. Coming into the hospital like all moms I was excited and scared b/c I felt that this was it. I wasnt exactly happy the doctor on call was the one OB at my office I really did not like and he had not looked at my birth plan at all. I was admitted and not long after was told braking my water would speed things up so I agreed like most moms would. This diminished  and decreased the effectiveness of my contractions and I felt so gross I didnt want to get up an move like I knew I needed too. My birth plan was not looked at by my nurses or my OB and every time they came in they kept asking me if I wanted pain meds which I did not. Since my contractions messed up with my water brake they put me on pitocin and started internal monitoring which then restricted  me to the bed. I put off pain meds and the epi till about 4am then I agreed when the OB told me it would be about 6 more hrs till Naomi would arrive. Miraculously 1 hr later he came in an told me she wouldnt fit and I would have to have a c-section. I proceeded to cry and was told by nurses and OBs not to cry I would have a happy healthy baby. This only made me cry harder. I was rolled off into the cold sterile operating room and waited for them to let my husband in. They did my stick test I didnt feel it so they proceed to begin the surgery. I felt him cut me and told him so. He told my husband he had to leave b/c I had to have general and I didnt even get to tell him I love you or anything before they whisked him out. The next thing I remember is waking up groggy and being asked if  I could grab some masked nurses shoulder. Lying in the recovery room shivering and without my baby all that could run through my mind was that this wasnt what I wanted and I missed some of the first most important moments of my first child's life. They brought her in so I could see her and hold her first and they had to move my arms so I could hold her. The first couple hrs I was so out of it I couldnt hold her or feed her. I didnt get to hear her first cry or see her come into the world. I couldnt take care of her myself b/c I was confined to the bed and didnt change a diaper till she was 2 days old. All anyone could say is dont worry about you have a healthy happy baby thats all that matters. That does matter but thats not all that matters. I was traumatized through this experience and no one seemed to understand and lots of people still dont. Thats why now even before planning to conceive again I am devouring all the info on VBACS and natural birth that I can. I have even already found a Doula and a natural birthing center to go to so my birth will be different next time and my feelings will be considered too. The first person to understand me and my feelings and tell me it wasnt my fault I wasnt defective or a failure was the Doula I plan to hire and she has helped me to overcome these feelings I have had and fight for the birth I want next time. For all of you who read this I hope that you see some insight into how traumatic births can be and understand how some women who also feel like this why they feel this way. And to those of you who have felt like this or feel like this I hope this shows you that its not your fault and you are a strong capable woman who can give birth the way God intended. Next time I will birth my way unless God deems other wise but till that time if it comes it will be my way.

Contest Please Help

Sep 14, 2011 - 0 comments

All my Medhelp friends we have yet to get any professional pictures taken of Naomi so we entered her into a contest. She is up against 8 other kids to win a free photo shoot and free hat. If you could please log onto facebook and find Autumn Rogers Photography and like her page then like Naomi's picture we would really appreciate it. Heres the link for her picture!  http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=220338131356820&set=a.206175462773087.50915.204576999599600&type=1&theater
Please vote for Naomi voting ends Friday night at 9!