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Day 6

Nov 09, 2009 - 0 comments
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Day 6

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fatigue

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tramadol



I noticed that my tracker is a day behind me.  I stopped totally on the 4th...that is 6 days.  I really stopped a little the day before, but I figure out of my system stopped 6 days ago! Woohoo.  

I'm feeling pretty good.  Seem to have a dull headache at times or it could be brain fog.  The RBS got to me last night at first, but managed to sleep.  All in all, the journey has been pretty easy.  I can feel the cravings calling now though.  I turn around to look for something...something is missing.  It's the pill.  Just the action of taking it.  I miss that right now, but this too shall pass.  I'm going to chew some gum, maybe have a vitamin or B12....and get over it for now.

I feel like taking a nap.  Fatigue and boredom are my triggers when working.  Hard to focus.  This is when I miss the tramadol, but I know it didn't really focus me.  I've been underperforming for awhile now.

Hanging in there...thinking about what my long term recovery process will be.


Day 2- Tramadol Free

Nov 05, 2009 - 0 comments
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tramadol

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day 2

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Anxiety

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sleep



I feel great! Last night, I had some RBS/RLS, but I doubled up my klonopin and melatonin and slept well finally.  I don't have cravings right now and no anxiety, although still a little skeptical that this is it?  Expect to have PAWS and will talk to psych about it today.  Also, can't rely on doubling klonopin to sleep, although it's the same dose I was on before I tapered.  Just don't want to start over with that.  So, maybe a couple of days with that.

Took a nice bath with epsom last night.  Thank goodness it's Thursday!

I feel more optimistic than I have in years! Please body, don't change your mind about this...please let this be it!



Day One

Nov 04, 2009 - 0 comments
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tramadol

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day one

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pills



My last pill was at 2pm yesterday.  Almost 24 hrs.  I'm really tired even though I slept well last night.  I guess the tramadol is leaving my system or starting to. I thought I would feel worse by now.  Usually, the sneezing sets in.  I just want to crawl into my bed or couch and sleep and watch TV.  Tired and nothing to take to pep me up.  :(

Quick Note

Nov 03, 2009 - 1 comments

I just need to update.  I've only taken 50mg so far today.  I think yesterday's depression might have been from other stuff, although I could be wrong.  I'm really looking forward to stopping now.  I wish the weekend were here!