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2nd Dr Apt

Mar 04, 2010 - 3 comments

I had my Second Dr apt yesterday!  I've had a rough week and am very stressed out with some things going on at work, so I REALLY needed this.  We tried to listen to the heartbeat but my midwife had a hard time finding it, I am only 9 weeks (so it's still early), and I've got a bit of fat in the belly from my first pregnancy so I wasn't TOO worried!  I also got to have an ultrasound done, we saw a strong 160 heartbeat and a little bean moving around a lot.  It was so amazing to watch my little baby, and I can't wait to see him/her at my 13 week apt!

I also asked about the 3D/4D ultrasounds mentioned in my birthing binder, I guess most of there ultrasound machines are the 3D/4D ultrasounds and a few are pretty old.  At the 20 week ultrasound to find the gender we will have a 3D/4D ultrasound done!!  I'm SO excited!

We have also told our family, so that's exciting too!

Here I am, about 6 1/2 weeks again...

Feb 16, 2010 - 10 comments

I wish I didn't look/update my pregnancy ticker today.  All I want to do is cry, it says I'm 6 weeks 6 days, but I believe I'm only 6 weeks 4 days (due to when I ovulated, I'm waiting for my next ultrasound to get a better due date).  When I miscarried in November, they said the baby stopped at 6 1/2 weeks, right where I am now.  It's SO hard to keep myself from crying.  I exercised yesterday, and feel a little better today.  I did throw up this morning from brushing my teeth, so it's not like that's gone away (although last time it didn't either).  I just can't stop second guessing all my symptoms.  I'm trying to be strong, part of me really wants to take my midwife up on her offer to see the baby but I'm just scared.  I really want to try and be strong and make it to my next apt on the 3rd, it's only two weeks from tomorrow.

I'm just so scared, sad, and depressed.

First Dr's apt

Feb 11, 2010 - 3 comments

My first dr's apt went pretty good.  My midwife asked a million questions, the she did an ultrasound.  I looked like I was around the 6 weeks, and we saw a flicker on the screen, she think's it could be the heartbeat but it's too hard/soon to tell.  I'm thinking I might be 6 weeks tomorrow.  She's going to call today to let me know what my numbers are.

My next apt is March 3rd, she's out of the office 4 weeks apart, so I ended up with my next 3 weeks away.  I'm excited!  She said we should be able to see much more by then :)  She also told me if I freak out and need to see the baby that I can stop by and she'll be glad to do an ultrasound for me :)

DS also seemed to enjoy it at the apt, he had fun kissing girls while I was in with my midwife.  

I feel better, but I figured I'd feel better than this, I'm still pretty freaked out, and the next 3 weeks will seem to take forever!  I'll be around 9 weeks when I have my next apt.

TWW for first dr apt

Feb 02, 2010 - 0 comments

I'm 4 wk and 6 d and scared to death!  I'm really excited for my dr's apt on the 10th, and it feels like I'm in the TWW all over again!  I'm glad I decided to go with the later apt, I should be 6 weeks then.  I read that the heart beat starts at about 6 weeks, I'm hoping we can see it (if they do an ultrasound then), but I'm not getting my hopes up.

Hubby's really excited to tell everyone, I've only told people online and that have been through this.  I'm scared to tell family then have it happen all over again.  The baby stopped developing at 6 1/2 weeks last time, I'm really hopping that at my second dr's apt that I start to feel a little better, by then I should be about 10 weeks (Since there every 4 weeks at this point and as far as I know I"m not high risk).

I'm so excited to see how everyone else has done that's in the same/similar boat as me, it's really nice to hear all of these success stories, it gives me hope.