Feb 28, 2015
Ok so the other night I got the worst night's sleep. I was tossing and turning worrying about going on the cruise because what if something is wrong with the baby? And then I started thinking about all of the things that could be wrong with the baby and it was just miserable. I called the doctor that morning and moved my anatomy scan to Monday instead of Tuesday. I feel a lot better about it knowing that I get confirmation that everything is ok sooner but I am still nervous. I Love my little goober so much already, i can't imagine not getting to watch them grow into the person God has planned for them to be. On another note, I also get to find out the gender sooner and I am so ready for my little one to have a title. A name. I don't like calling it "it". It feels so impersonal. However, Nick doesn't want anyone to know before our parents. That means I would have to wait almost a week without telling anyone! I am going to go as long as I can but I don't think it will happen. "he" or "she" is likely to slip out somewhere I can't put myself in a box for that long! I will have to discuss with him about the whole situation. I mean, Our parents were the first to know that we were pregnant at all (other than my sister and the photographer who we took pictures with the day we found out.) I am not as worried about my parents being first on this one. But maybe. As I am typing this I feel a little bit guilty. Maybe guilt will be enough to keep it in. I don't know. anyways, 41.5 hours till we have our appointment! Rant over!