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*RANT* 12 weeks and Symptoms are getting worse!

Jan 17, 2015 - 0 comments

morning sickness




Early Pregnancy Sypmtoms



UGH!!! I didn't have awful morning sickness, it was very mild in the past.Now all of the sudden the symptoms are getting worse! I am constipated AND feel like throwing up. I just got my prescription of Zofran an had taken it three times. I figure that and prenatals and natural pregnancy things were what plugged me up. I seriously think it's been almost a week since I pooped. I decided yesterday that I am not taking either my prenatals or the Zofran until I poop. (unless it is extensive). But for real! I have been downing orange juice and apple juice and eating those little fruit cocktail cups and apples and carrots and drinking lots of water and other fluids and I just can't make it come out. Last night I got 3 rock hard deer droppings out in 45 minutes and oooooh!  It hurt so bad!! I took a warm bath after to try and calm my muscles that were basically stuck flexing. I am terrified of getting a hemorrhoid from this. I got one more deer dropping out this morning with slightly more ease than last night but now with this morning sickness today, I just wanna take the nausea medicine to make it go away! I am so freaking miserable and I can't to anything about it! UUUGGGGHHHH!!!!! AND I have to be at work through it all! I just want to curl up in a ball and sleep since apparently that is the only time I am not going to feel gross. I thought all of this was supposed to wear off in the second trimester. Well symptoms, you have 4 days to GO AWAY!!!

Another Dream

Jan 13, 2015 - 0 comments

baby names


First baby


baby boy or girl



So this one is way sweeter than my last.

I walked in the door and called "Andrew!" and this little three year old boy came running in from the kitchen with bouncy brown hair and a big ol' smile on his face! I knelt down to give him a hug and asked him "where's our little princess" (referencing a baby girl that I never saw but just knew about) and he responded "she's sleeping."

That's it. The whole dream. A flash into the future?

I think more than anything, my brain has been so wracked with trying to decide if my mommy instinct is telling me that this baby is a boy or a girl and this is my brain saying "it's going to be alright. Now, I still keep coming back to I think it is a girl but after that dream I am even more ok with our first being a boy <3 Ugh! I just want t I know already but I don't get to find out until March!

My crazy dream

Jan 05, 2015 - 1 comments

crazy dreams



So last night I had lots of crazy dreams but there is one specific one I would like to remember.

I was 16 weeks along, not showing at all but I had delivered my sweet baby girl. She was 9 pounds and 1 oz and 19 inches long. She had 36 teeth (I don't know how many adults have but basically she had all of them) but they weren't all grown in the same amount so it looked kind of funny. I had delivered vaginally and was almost immediately able to get up and do whatever I wanted. I kept looking at my little girl (she really looked more like a one year old with her size and those teeth but she was a brand new baby) and saying, "I have always wanted my first girl to be Michelle Kay but this isn't Michelle. This isn't her. We need to come up with a different name." I could not make my brain or my heart make the connection. My husband said "give her the name and she will grow into it." But I couldn't, that wasn't Michelle. The whole dream everybody called her Brynlee (my niece's name). I was getting so frustrated because she isn't Brynlee, this is MY baby and it isn't Michelle so I don't know what to call her! ugh! Anyways, my sister (Brynlee's mom) was there and we were playing with little no name baby and she kind of made out some unspecified words and we were like, woah. So we asked her to say something specific and she said it clear as day and was walking around with her cousin and playing and talking. At 2 days old! With 36 teeth! And no name!


Dec 30, 2014 - 1 comments

Well, I am pregnant. It only took 2 months which is sweet but it felt like forever and I was getting discouraged. But we did it! Baby Nickley ( No, this is not baby's name, it's like Bradgelina but combined me and my husband's names) is on my mind... always! We have our first Doctor's appointment on January 7th and we are so freaking excited and a little bit nervous. Why are we nervous? What if the missed periods and positive pregnancy test were a freak accident and we get there and there is no baby. Or what if we do an ultrasound and there are TWO babies?! We have figured out how we will both be able to keep working and afford to live with a baby but I am not sure how we would do it with TWO and twins runs in my family. At the same time, i kind of want twins... I know, be careful what you wish for but I think it would be super fun, for some parts and I know it would be super hard for the others. Either way, I know that God has a plan and he won't challenge me with more than I am able to handle and I have my sweet husband by my side every step of the way! man, I love him!

I have been on and off sick. I had to force myself to eat and talk myself out of throwing up from the middle of the fifth week to the end of the sixth. Week 7 I felt great and thought I was done! That was easy. Nope. Week 8 hit and I feel sick again, I can hardly eat anything and I feel so squished inside, like all of my guts are touching too much. I will be 9 weeks on the 1st of January and am hoping for another week of fine before I get sick again. If that pattern keeps up, I think I can handle it.