I think me and DH finally did it!!! I'm overwhelmed! This is my EDD month!! Thank you God for answering my prayers!!!!

very very sore and erect nipples

So...I'm starting to convince myself that AF is showing again this month, bbs are not as tender as yesterday which normally mean AF is on her way, no cm, feel completely dry. Think I've been imagining things bout the nipples as they are not sore no more. Bring on cycle no 9. I'm few days away from my EDD, was so hoping I would conceive before then. But looks like I'm out of luck. DH wants to go to the doc next month, luckily he didn't bring that topic up again, cause I am not to fond of the idea. Really starting to give up on the whole pregnancy thing, maybe I'm just not cut out to become a mother.... Feel so down in the dumps today. Just want to go home, get into a nice hot bubble bath, get in to bed and just sleep. Not up to anything. I know I'm sounding sooo pathetic. Just wish I could see the silver lining to my black little cloud

Dear dairy

So I'm about 4/5 dpo today, not really sure, AF is due next week Sunday.

Last night, had a girls night, was sooo awesome, been 2 years since I've been out "drinking", had some cocktails and went home, got in bed at about 11ish, woke this morning at 6, had some trouble sleeping last night. Today, I feel soooo sick! I have a headache, I feel so warm, I just don't feel myself, just feel tired and dead. lol.
Don't know this could be linked to last night or to something "positive".

Me and dh are taking things one day at a time, he wants to go to the doc next month to do tests, as she said to come back if we are having trouble conceiving, I don't know if I want to go through with all that testing, what if we do the testing and the don't find anything, what if there's nothing wrong. I still want to get pregnant and everything, just not up to that. September last year we started trying for a baby found out in December that I was pregnant, sadly we lost that pregnancy, which I think kinda mean that there's nothing wrong, that we are able to conceive, now is maybe just not the time, thats entirely up to God to decide when! I know he feels that things are kinda taking to long, some days back I thought the same thing, but now...really trying to think about other things, get my mind of stuff like that.

At the moment we got so much going on at our house, doing some renovations and stuff, so my mind is kinda off the baby thing, don't know if we even did our part around o-time.

SSBD to all you wonderful pps!