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Hoping for the best!

Apr 30, 2010 - 1 comments

Well this is my 3rd cycle since losing Hunter. We have been trying ttc ever since. This cycle I ended up getting the instead softcups and using them as a fertility aid. I am now 5 dpo and I just have this feeling like this could be the month! It is too early to test yet but I am hoping for a bfp. Keeping my fingers crossed!

Implantation cramping?

Apr 30, 2010 - 1 comments

I do have some moderate cramping. Could it be implantation? I wonder if it would be too early.

My Ovulation

Very Odd...

Apr 14, 2010 - 0 comments

I have had a heavy flow for 2 days then last night it stopped. I woke up and nothing at all. It wasn't until the afternoon that I had some spotting and now I am still spotting. Also I started on day 26 and last cycle I started on day 30. It has crossed my mind that this could be a very early miscarriage. I tool a hpt the day before I started and it was negative. This is only my 2nd cycle since I lost Hunter at 17 wks so maybe my system is out of wack. I just don't understand the starting and stopping.

My Ovulation

Nights like these...

Mar 24, 2010 - 4 comments

It is nights like these that I just don't know what to do with myself. After my DD goes to bed and my DH is working out of state, all I have is myself and no distractions. This is a time when my grief comes to the surface. Geeze I used to be able to have a glass of wine or two without breaking down! I miss my baby and I feel like no one can relate. I would not be sitting here drinking this damn wine, singing this sad song (that no one obviously wants to here in my family), if I still had him growing inside me. The truth is that it happened, my precious baby died what can I do now!!! I try to share a site that I made in memorial of my son Hunter and it seems like everyone went there once and now I am the only one that visits even though I add things all the time. I sent an email out to some of my closest friends and family of a slide show I made of Hunter and not one person responded!!! I feel totally alone....