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24 of February 2015

Feb 24, 2015 - 0 comments
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Depression

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schizoaffective

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Schizophrenia

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Sorry I have been inactive I've just been incredibly busy with work and haven't even had much time to blog.

So how am i? Well I'm still very depressed, i'm cold. But I got to see my partner the other day that was nice (were long distance)

However I'm still very depressed and I'm finding it hard to stick to a bodybuilding diet... Makes me feel pathetic and worthless a bit.

Thursday the 5th of February

Feb 05, 2015 - 0 comments
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Medical conditions

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Schizophrenia

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I don't know what is wrong with me, I'm low but I'm okay. It's loud but I'm happy. I don't know how to explain my mood. I do however keep thinking about sleeping forever, that would be nice. I'm sick of my lifestyle, truly sick of it. It's rubbish, it's pathetic. It's just so meaningless like me.

28th of January 2015

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Self

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schizoaffective

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self harm



I don't know what's wrong, I feel so low. So ******* low I have no idea why. I just want to dig that razor into my flesh but I cant do that. If I do that I loose, I loose to them  stupid things in my head. That constant out burst of noise screaming down on me like heavy rain on a tin roof. It's so loud, so so loud. I need to do something productive. I'm going to attempt to go the gym and see what happens. I can't stay in these four walls though. I'll make a mess... I don't want to do that. I cant let people down again.

Tue 27th Jan 2015

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schizoaffective

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food

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yoga

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Gym



Increase of mirtazapine to 30mg decrease of fluoxetine to 20mg, risperidone still at 1mg a day. Felt excessively hungry today, however have went to the gym and done yoga. I did however eat bad food today. List: Protein pancakes, sausage and bacon bap, ice cream, protein shake, dominos pizza.