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Pre-term Labour

Jun 07, 2012 - 27 comments

I finally feel ready to write about what happened to my little Ruby.

Basically they don't really know what caused me to go into preterm labour.  I had some dark yellow discharge last Tuesday and contacted my midwife and she said to go do a urine sample at the lab on the Wednesday morning and then go and see her in the afternoon for a vaginal swab.  Well I did the urine sample on the Wednesday morning but started lightly bleeding around midday and had some mild cramping so I rang my midwife and she said to go to hospital.

I got there and they kept promising me a scan but I didn't get one till the next day (Thursday) at 10:30am. On the ultrasound she was fine and jumping around and happy as but they said my cervix was open and some membranes were bulging into my vaginal canal. They were looking at giving me the stitch but only if my cramping stopped. Unfortunately I started having contractions around midday and went into full on labour and there was nothing they could do, I delivered her on Friday morning at 6:00am. She came out whole in the sac, my waters didn't even break.  It was such a hard labour and I lost a lot of blood, I had to have a blood transfusion in the end.

They still don't know why it happened, one doctor thinks I might have had an infection (but my urine sample and swabs they did in hospital came back clear) and another doctor thinks I might have had an incompetent cervix. I may get some answers once all the tests come back. I can't help but think if they had just scanned me as soon as I arrived in hospital on the Wednesday or even checked my cervix by looking in my vagina they might have been able to do something to stop me going into labour.  I guess I can't dwell on these things but it makes me mad that they didn't take it seriously till it was too late.

NT scan and bloodwork results

Apr 26, 2012 - 12 comments

So I got my results back yesterday and I came back as 'low risk' overall.  It was then broken down into this:

Risk of Down Syndrome: 1 in 2,300
Risk of Trisomy 13: 1 in 100,000
Risk of Trisomy 18: 1 in 100,000

So I don't need an amnio which is fantastic!

Bleeding again

Apr 22, 2012 - 27 comments

So I started bleeding again last night, brown then red then brown again with a few tiny clots which I didn't have last time.  I didn't go to hospital this time, I found the baby's heartbeat on the doppler so that reassured me a bit.  When I had my NT scan on Thursday the tech did mention a black spot which she measured and said this might be where you bled from on Saturday.  I said what is it and she said it's a subchoronic hematoma and I said where is it and she said it's where the placenta has attached and then went about doing the rest of the scan without giving me anymore information.  She didn't seemed concerned about it so I thought oh it must be ok but now I'm worried because I'm bleeding again.  Is it bad that it's where the placenta is attached???

I'm going to call my midwife soon and the recurrent pregnancy loss clinic I'm still under till 14 weeks and see what they have to say about it.

News from a friend that has put me on edge

Apr 15, 2012 - 13 comments

So I just have to write a journal about this - mainly to vent my feelings as I can feel all these emotions building up inside me and I need to get them out.  So after my weekend stay in hopital I get home and I'm feeling really emotional and vulnerable from all the worry I had over the bleeding and my best friend texted me to tell me she's 9 weeks pregnant.  Now don't get me wrong I am happy for her but at the same time it brought up all these other emotions.  I feel like there is so much pressure now for me not to lose this baby, what if I lose it and I have to watch her go through the rest of her pregnancy and get a baby at the end of it.  I don't think I could handle it.  I feel like it's jinxed my pregnancy and now I'm doomed.  I know these are silly thoughts to have but I just can't help it.  Also I know if it was anybody else I probably wouldn't feel these feelings as strongly as I do but she is my best friend and somehow it just makes it worse.  The other thing I feel is anger - not at her but at the situation.  She only got with this guy about a year ago and it's her first proper relationship and bam she's pregnant easy as that. It was probably her first month of trying!   I've been in a realtionship for ages and I've been trying to have a baby for years, I've lost so many pregnancies and now this pregnancy seems to have complications.  It just feels so ****** unfair.  I feel so selfish saying and feeling all this but I can't help it.  I just wish she didn't get pregnant till after I had my baby safely in my arms.