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In hospital..bedrest

Nov 18, 2010 - 0 comments
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We're ok. Baby is doing well, I'm ok.
Tuesday night i had another bleed so I came in to L&D and they are monitoring me and keeping me until Friday on hospital bedrest.  My u/s didn't find any new bleeds but I guess the bright red blood came from my old SCH that is lingering happily.  I'm glad to be here.  They gave me steroid shots to further develop baby's lungs should I go into preterm labour.  My nurse and Ob think that staying at my mum's is a pretty good idea just in case the baby comes early because they tend to come pretty quick.  I just want to go home where I'm most comfortable.  My boys need some stability.  I don't know what to do.  I can't be there until January...I'll go nuts but really what are my options?  It took us over an hour to get here from Bowen and I need to go to women's if baby is early...ahhh.  Stay calm.

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Another U/S and SCH seems to be shrinking...

Nov 06, 2010 - 0 comments
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24wks pregnant



Well, my SCH seems to be getting smaller according to the U/S tech but I see the OB on Monday for confirmation and what happens from here.  I'm feeling a little more optimistic but I just read on another thread that a woman just had her baby boy at 25wks.  I'm 25wks tomorrow but my God, her baby is so tiny that I can't imagine if I had my baby tomorrow.  
This pregnancy had been so hard emotionally and physically.  I have now been on modified bedrest for 10wks and it is so hard with the boys and juggling schedules and help that I feel so useless as a mother and a wife.
My husband is getting increasingly less patient and I can't blame him.  Pelvic rest is hard on a relationship and he works and then has to pick up the slack when he gets home because I can't cook and clean and care for my kids which is MY JOB!!!  I am frustrated and exhausted from the stress and worry.  My baby boy is growing fine right now and it seems things are getting better and healing but there is still the risk of preterm labour and I'm terrified of losing this little boy.  
I feel so tired some days and I really don't do anything.  Normally, I am so active. I walk or run everyday at least 6km with both of my boys in the stroller and I am not used to being so inactive.  I feel like my body has aged 10yrs this pregnancy and I don't know how I am going to bounce back when I can finally come off of bedrest or after having the baby.  
Ok...starting to ramble.  I'll write later when my head is clear.

Spotting again...sigh

Oct 08, 2010 - 0 comments
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After 3 days without spotting I started spotting again.  I'm getting used to it but it still keeps me very alert and thinking about every body twinge, ache, pain, and discomfort.
My boys are driving me bonkers today.  My husband was up for work at 5:45am and woke both of them up.  I'm overtired and although my godfather is here to help take care of them, having someone else disciplining your kids can be extremely grating on the nerves! I'm being ungrateful but I am so sick of not being able to be their mum 100%.  My eldest keeps bashing the youngest for attention and my youngest has just started to realize the great effect of screaming loudly.  Ahhh.
I'm worried today. I feel like 6 weeks is an eternity away and I keep thinking about going into labour before the baby is of a viable age.  I try to stay focussed on the positives but sometimes my thoughts get negative and the stress starts to get to me.  
Stay in there baby. Hang on. I can't lose you.

Follow Up Ultrasound...

Oct 07, 2010 - 0 comments
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Well, finally, my follow-up ultrasound.  THere's good news and bad.  First of all, the baby is still growing fine and is actually measuring over a week bigger than expected and the legs are almost 2 wks longer than expected! This baby has it'a mama's legs!  The hemorrhage is still there but it has started to clot and although it is still considered "large" it has gotten a bit smaller (they think) and it is now measuring approximately 7cmx5cm instead of 9cmx6cm (which it was 4 weeks ago).  I am still very nervous and stressed because I am being reminded that a baby born before 25 weeks doesn't have much of a chance for survival and I still have at least 6 weeks to go until I will breathe a TINY bit easier knowing that although there would be complications at least my baby would have a chance at life if it were to be born then.  My midwife and OBGYN both went over the signs of preterm labour with me and have reminded me of the risk since the hematoma is still there.  I was hoping of course that it would be gone after this long 4 wks of spotting but unfortunately, it just hasn't healed yet or been absorbed.  I will have another U/S in 4 weeks and then every month of the pregnancy to check growth, cervix length, and the state of the hematoma.  I just stopped spotting yesterday and I am wondering now if that is a good thing.  I could tell that where the hematoma had started to clot on the U/S but there was still a rather large area of "loose" blood.  I'm trying to rest, no sex, no physical activity, or overdoing things with my boys but wow, what a change from my other pregnancies.  I am hoping and praying that this baby is going to make it.  I saw a penis on the u/s so I know now that this is my 3rd boy! I'm very excited but we're keeping that a secret.  Thinking positive thoughts and praying that things work out.