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Oct 13, 2010 - 3 comments
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So yesterday was a really good day for me. I've been having a lot of stress at my job lately about going out on maternity leave, possibly coming back part-time, appointments, ect. It seems like my boss doesnt want to talk about the inevitable and constantly avoids all conversation about it. I really need to take care of all of this BEFORE I have the little ones. But she has been out of the country for business this week and honestly I couldnt be any happier. Her attitude towards me has changed over the last few months and we used to be very close. One day she even had the nerve to say "I've been MORE than accomodating for all of your appointments and ect." I dont see what the deal is? I work 9-10 hour days 5 days a week, show up on time every day, haven't called in ALL year long, work my @ss off for her to now treat me like i'm some slacker? My work hasen't changed - if anything, it's gotten better because I dont want anyone to think I cant do my job because i'm pregnant. So anyways, enough about that lol It's been a great day and a great week.....

Plus to top it off DF felt the babies moving around in my belly last night for the FIRST time!!! The girls were just kicking away and he sat there with his hand on my belly smiling. It was such a great feeling. He has been super loving and supportive lately and am grateful to have him in my life. I honestly couldn't imagine it any better!! Hope everyone is having a great week as well and a happy hump day :)

We are having two little princesses!!!

Sep 08, 2010 - 9 comments
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I am so excited to find out the gender today. It honestly makes this pregnancy seem so much more real to me. I sit and think about everything we have gone through to get to this point and it almost puts me in tears to think about how blessed we are. DF is also super excited to have two girls on the way despite him originally wanting two boys. He told his friend "I bet you my daughter will get a deer before your son does" haha yes, he is a huge outdoorsy person. It's crazy to think I will be a mommy in 3-4 months but it is the greatest feeling in the world. Two healthy babies is all I have hoped and dreamed for and now I am forever grateful that God has helped me get to this point.

The doctors are concerned still that the twins are measuring a week apart. The High Risk doctor ordered me a Trisomy test for Downs. I am sad to think that one of them may have Down Syndrome but either way we will love them the same and treat them no differently. I am praying to hear good test results. I hope all is well with you ladies out there. To the woman still TTC - trust me it is harder than people think! We have hit every bump in the road but look where we are today. Maybe our story can give someone else hope that it will happen for them some day as well. Thank you all for being so very supportive and loving. You all are rockstars that helped me pick myself back up and try again. You ROCK!!

Just a few updates.....

Aug 16, 2010 - 4 comments
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Well I still cant believe that I have made it this far, and especially with two little peanuts!! I am over the moon happy and am so excited to meet my little ones. I'm not sure if I mentioned to anyone on here yet but at my 12 week appt the doctor told me that I will have a scheduled c-section when the babies are 36 weeks gestation if I dont go into labor by then. My doc said that he has never delivered twins naturally because of all the complications that could arise and more than likely they wouldnt both the head down when I go into labor. I wont lie, I was pretty bummed when I found out I couldnt give birth to them naturally but if this is better for their safety than i'm okay with the c-section! Plus, it will be scheduled so we can have our out-of-town family come in for a few days to visit and see the little ones. So with my full term date moved up to 36 weeks this makes my Due date January 9th 2011. It's crazy to think that we are almost half way there!! I just want these little ones to stay in my belly for as long as they need as in there is the healthiest place for them. I am praying that everything goes smooth from here on out and we dont face anymore bumps in the road. I cant wait to be a mommy!!!

Safe but unsure

Jul 27, 2010 - 7 comments
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So yesterday we had our 12 week appointment with the doctor. It was our first time meeting the doctor and he was very nice. We did a Pap and they checked my blood pressure. He said everything looked normal and that the babies are doing great so far. I asked if I would get an u/s and he said that we could because it had been two weeks since the last one. He said I would be full term at 36 weeks and my new due date is January 9th. I am also a candidate for pre-term labor so they want to monitor me very closey. Other than that, everything was positive news. The u/s was very brief and she just measured my cervix and said we were done. I asked if she could take measurements and let us listen to the heartbeat which she didnt seem thrilled about but did it anyways. The heartbeats looked great, they were both in the 165 range. The measurements were 5.9 cm and 5.1 cm. I just cannot believe how fast these little guys/girls are growing. When you girls see the pics you will prolly be shocked just like I was!

When I got pregnant we decided that we will keep our pregnancy a secret atleast until the 12 week point. Now that we are here he is feeling a little unsure about telling people just yet. I'm ready to share the news with the world (FINALLY) and he is wanting to now wait a few more weeks. I understand that he is scared that something might happen but he needs to be able to take a chance and trust in God that things will be okay. The doctor even told us that we are out of the m/c window and the chance of something happening at this point is very slim. With my track record, that was reassuring of him to tell us that. So do I wait until after my next u/s at 14 weeks to tell people like he wants or do I say screw it and tell everyone on my own? I'm so unsure right now. I have no idea what I should do. It just makes me sad that he doesnt want to share this news with our friends and family yet. I swear if it's not one thing it's another.....