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Second ultrasound at 6 weeks

Jun 17, 2010 - 15 comments
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So this afternoon I went in for my second u/s and was told I would see the babies heartbeat. Well much to my surprise I actually saw and heard TWO!! I was thinking a week ago I might be pregnant with twins because of my high HCG levels and I thought I saw two sacs last time I had a u/s. Well they confirmed today that indeed I am! They each have there own sacs and are fraternal twins. One baby was conceived a week after I conceived the first. So baby #1 is 6 weeks along and baby #2 is 5 weeks. It was so amazing to see and hear their heartbeats and I love my beans so much already. I hope and pray that these guys stay strong as they would make me the happiest woman in the world. DF is in shock still but is super excited. We are sticking to our plans and not telling family/friends until after the first trimester. This is going to make it so much harder!!! Please babies stick as I would love to meet you in February. I love you both so much already.

245 days and counting

Jun 11, 2010 - 4 comments
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I'm a little nervous today about my pregnancy. 5w1d was when I lost the last baby. I am so happy and positive that this one will last but in the back of my mind I keep remembering my other losses. For any woman who has experienced a loss this is a feeling that will never go away. We are no longer naive and think that "that would never happen", because we truly know that anything could happen. Please God provide me the strength to carry this baby to term.

252 Days to Go

Jun 04, 2010 - 5 comments
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So I got my Beta results back from my blood test.
Wednesday: 3w 6d - HCG 474
Friday: 4w 1d - HCG 1052

I was so scared that she was going to tell me that my levels dropped but she actually said my levels looked great. For some reason I feel uneasy though. I am so scared that this pregnancy will end like the others did. I dont think I will ever be able to relax until I have a healthy baby in my arms. I wish I could look into the future and see if everything will be okay this time. I try to stay positive most of the time but with my last 2 m/c's I know that anything could happen. I know I shouldnt be feeling sad/scared right now and should be happy for the miracle God has given. Any advice? How do you "forget" what happened the other two times...? I go back in on Monday for a blood test and will continue to every other day until my beta reaches 3000. Then she wants me to come in for my first u/s. I pray I can make it that far - and hopefully for another 8 months.  

BFP on 12DPO

Jun 01, 2010 - 5 comments
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Wow what a journey this has been so far! This is my third pregnancy and I am pretty nervous but am trying to be as relaxed as possible. If you dont know my past I have had two prior m/c's and no living children. I am hoping and praying that this one is my sticky bean and I can meet him/her after about 9 months. If only I can experience a very uneventful 9 months I would be forever grateful. I was half tempted to test today but broke down after having major dizzy spells after waking up (I have the same symptoms my first pregnancy). I cannot wait to get home to tell my love. I know he will be so excited as he is just dying to be a father. And I know he will make a great one. I hope that the last heartbreak was the last and this miracle stays strong. I wish every woman ttc much luck as I know falling pregnant is easier said than done. Keep your head up ladies. It always happens when you least expect it!! The Baby Dust sprinkled on me apparently worked so now I sprinkle it on all of my ttc friends. oxoxo