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Day 37

May 03, 2012 - 0 comments

Still struggling some.  How is it that this is so hard???  

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Day 19

Apr 15, 2012 - 0 comments
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Doing ok.  This time I have not spent so much time thinking about how I feel.  I have just gotten myself as busy as possible.  It has worked better.  You just have to push thru the WD, knowing it will just take some time.  Had a good day today. Still low energy, but I have just forced myself to do stuff anyway.  I do still wish for one on occasion, but I know if I ever touch one again, it will all start over.  Horrible!  It is miserable to live feeling the WD.  And miserable to live wanting more trams and being someone I am not.  With Gods help, I will beat this demon and never take another pill. I want to be myself, not some trammed up nervous person, with headaches, and stomachaches every day.  May God give me His supernatural strength to be free of these pills and the bondage they create.

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Day 9- doing ok, but....

Apr 05, 2012 - 0 comments

What a battle.  I have been workig and basically as busy as normal thru this WD.  I feel very humbled by the experience.  These drugs have such deep roots in us when they take hold.  I just pray that my husband stays off them now too.  It is way too hard to have them around and not take one at some point.  I hate the hold that is there.  We all must be very strong and very scared to ever get near one again after surviving the WD period.  Soon as you take even one little bit, it hooks you back in.  With Gods help, I will be free for good now.

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First day off trams

Mar 28, 2012 - 0 comments
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Well, I have quit the trams again.  This time, my husband is doing it too.   We are both going off and the really cool thing is that he hugged me today and said he felt like he had to also get off because he felt like he pus addiction was also keeping me on the pills because they are in the house.  I went off last year for 5 months, but lapsed back onto the same tram train- they were here and available to me, so one day I just started taking them again.  It can't be just one or 1/2 or 1/4 of one. If you get of, you can never let one tram pass your lips again.  If you do, it is a sudden hook back into possibly years more of addiction.  This withdrawal is horrible and totally not worth it.  God wants us to depend on His and His strength, nit on pills to supposedly feel better.  May God grant me an extra measure of strength and comfort as I persevere through this withdrawal period.

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