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Day 150

Jan 16, 2011 - 1 comments

I am still off trams. But I still feel the WD at times- esp when I am stressed.  I still want to take a pill at times.  My husband is on them STILL, but I have refrained from doing it.  I know how bad they are and how they made me into a different person.  Being on them for sooooo long- over 10 yrs, I believe makes it hard for my body to adjust to the new chemistry.  I pray each time I get that urge to take one.  Five months off is a lot of work to loose and for what??????  A short term antidepressant effect that will turn into a huge addiction again.  I will remain steadfast, but I sure wish my husband would stop.  It woudl help to not have access, then I would stop thinking about the trams when I have a bad day or feel sad or need energy.  That was a way of life for me for a long time.  May God strengthen my resolve to be true to who I am and who He wants me to be.  

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Day 98- I have my life back!!

Nov 25, 2010 - 0 comments
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I am on day 98 of freedom from tramadol.  I finally feel better.  I am my old self again- about at 95% or more.  My energy is back and the depression is gone.  I am sleeping good most nights now. My daughter who does not know about my addiction told me, "mom, you seem so much happier lately.  You are a nicer person! and you are not so groughy any more"  Wow!  I know this change is due to being off the trams.  I wont lie- there have been moments that I have been close to taking one (my husband is still on them), but I have somehow stopped myself and now I feel I am over the hump.  Her saying that to me was a blessing.  I know I was not being the person who God made me to be.  It bothered me every single day while I was taking them.  Now the addiction is not in the way of my faith, my relationships or anything else.  I am so thankful to God for giving me strength to be free.  Now He can use me in new and better ways to serve others and especially my family and friends.

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Day 67- doing good

Oct 25, 2010 - 1 comments

I am doing mostly good now.  Have occasional PAWS symptoms, but they only last a few hours and are gone.  I have had some wonderful days where I am really back to normal and I know this will continue to get better every day.  I dont think about trams all the time anymore, which is very good.  I have rekindled interest in some old hobbies that I have not really felt like doing for a long time.  Interesting how now I feel more creative and think more deeply about things again.  the trams really screwed up my life for 10 yrs!!  67 days free.  I am so very thankful.  

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61 days-  doing good

Oct 19, 2010 - 0 comments

I feel as if I have turned a corner.   Thanks be to God.  I am really free of this stuff.  

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