Today is day 45 free of trams. I am on a family vacation- which is a little stressful with grandkids and being so busy all the time. I have to say I still think about trams, but being so busy and in need of energy, I think...hmmm maybe if in took just a tiny piece of one, it wouldnt hurt and I would be feeling happy and energetic. Is that true?? NO!!!! I would soon be realizing I was back at the start of my addiction. Back at feeling even worse. Back at having HUGE mood swings, back at living in a way that negatively affected my relationshiips with others but most importantly God. You see I feel the trams had become my God. They ruled my life. I am so tired. More on this tomorrow.
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