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Jul 18, 2010 - 0 comments

Things are really starting to happen to me. I just found out that my college is going to be payed for until I am 26, I know who my roommate is going to be, I am in this awesome program for Women in Science & Engineering (WiSE) (also I am the only known black woman in this group), and I leave for college in about a month. Along with all the anxiety that comes will moving away from home and family, I am still fat. I would really love to lose 20 pounds before I go off. A couple of days ago I got a tattoo of an ouroboros, which is a snake eating it's tail. It represents change and evolution which is appropriate for me going to school and losing weight. Take this as some sort of revelation or epiphany. By the end of August, I will be twenty pounds lighter.

Birth Control

Jul 14, 2010 - 0 comments

Birth Control


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Today is my first day on birth control. I'm really looking forward to see how it's going to affect me. Ugh.

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I'm Back

Jun 10, 2010 - 0 comments






Yesterday I graduated high school, Hooray for me, but before I had to go shopping for a dress. Actually, lets start before that when I was with my sister and mother when we were talking about going to the mall. Mom was saying how we should go to Torrid and Theresa, my sister, said that I don't need to be going to those fat people stores. She said this as I was walking into the kitchen so my back was away from her. I instantly started tearing up when she said, "you know you're not fat Imani." I told her that I knew, fight back tears. So we went to the mall and ended up not buying anything except for some underwear from Victoria's Secret (I can barely fit into a large). The next day my mom wanted to take me to Ashley Stewart because she claims that they have some really cute clothes. I went and found something that I liked, a skirt and a black shirt. After that a friend of mine, Angel, wanted me to go to Rhapsodielle with here so I did. Now Angel is probably a size 10 and Rhapsodielle only carries extra small, small, medium, and large. I would love to buy clothes there but they really don't have my size and then seeing Angel wearing a medium and sometimes a small really put me over the edge. This is officially the summer of change. I have a job so my money can go to healthy foods and maybe a gym membership :/ I want to get down to 200 by the time I start school on August 24. That may not be possible but I'm going to try. Wish me luck.


May 25, 2010 - 0 comments


My mother's flight didn't get in until 9:30. By the time I got to the airport it was 10 and then we had to drop off her fiancée who lives forever away and then we had to go home which is a 30 minute ride from his house. It was not a good night. I did get some saltwater taffy though.

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