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Baby #3 (2nd Pregnancy) on the way!!!!

Feb 27, 2013 - 2 comments

Suprise Suprise! I was shocked to find out that I am pregnant. I am thrilled and also very scared of the road ahead. I have b/b twins that are almost 14 mos with little help. Just taking it one day at a time.

Another scare

Jul 20, 2011 - 4 comments

I was enjoying my day on Monday. Just celebrating that we hit the 3 month mark and all was well. I felt fine, even my fatigue was gone. While cooking dinner, I felt a gush come out of me. I ran to the bathroom and sat on the toilet and saw bright red and clots. I didn't panic but I screemed to my DH to call my OB now. It was after hours so the on call doctor advised me to go to the hospital. We rushed to the hospital and I was put in a room right away. The ER doctor checked my cervix and saw that it was closed, which was a good sign but I was not in the clear yet. He said I had a lot of clots but no signs of any tissue. I waited for my u/s and saw the babies were moving and hearts beating away. They did not know why I was bleeding or where it was coming from. All they could say that I may be miscarrying. What a nightmare. I didn't get any sleep that night and was worried that the bleeding would get worse. The bleeding eventually slowed but I was still spotting. I already had appts scheduled for the next day with my OB and Perinatologist and wanted to get more answers to what was happening with me and the fate of my babies. By morning the spotting was getting less and less and turning brown, so I knew it was old blood. Anyway, too make a long story short... they couldn't tell me much but to wait and see what happens. The babies are doing great and don't seem to be in distress, though I am a mess. I am scared and this waiting is killing me. Why is this happening to me? I am doing everything I am supposed to do. It was hard to even get here and now that I am here, it's like someone is playing a cruel joke on me. I feel like I can't celebrate my happiness b/c when I do, I am being punished.

2 Heartbeats

Jun 04, 2011 - 7 comments

My u/s yesterday was the most amazing experience I ever had. I saw and heard my 2 little beans. I was just in awe of how advance the technology is today. So baby A is 6 weeks and 5 days and baby B is 6 weeks and 3 days. Baby A's heartbeat was 113 bpm and Baby B's was 119 bpm. All is well and I will be graduating from the RE on June 14th. I couldn't wait for this day but now I can celebrate and get excited for this new life that me and my dh will be experiencing.

Had a big scare yesterday...

May 26, 2011 - 8 comments

At 1:30 AM on Wednesday, I woke up with strong period like cramps. I went to the bathroom and when I wiped I saw blood. It wasn't spotting either it was bright red and I paniked. I woke my husband up and called my RE right away. The oncall doctor advised me to wait until I go for my u/s and b/w in the morning as scheduled. I was having such pain and the bleeding was so heavy I told my husband that we needed to go to the hospital. So, after a few hours in the hospital I was told by the doctor that I am having twins but that my hormone levels are very low for a twin pregnancy and that I was in the begining stages of a miscarriage. My husband and I were devastated. I was still experiencing cramps but the bleeding did stop after the nurse removed a clot on my cervix. She said that it would stop the bleeding. Shorlty after that, I was spotting and then it finally stopped. We left the hospital and went directly to RE to get a consult. I explained to the covering doctor of what happened. She said that hospitals are not fertility specialists and that we didn't need to go to the ER. I was so angry when she said that, I mean really... with all the books I have they all say to go to the ER if you have heavy bleeding and painful cramps! Well, she proceeded to do the u/s and said that she saw 2 perfect gestational sacs and that I am still in the game. I then started to cry. This day was supposed to be the happiest day and it was just a complete nightmare. They took blood from me and waited for their call. We went home so exhausted. I was numb and didn't know what kind of news I was going to get later in the day. I got the phone call @ 2pm and was told everything was fine and that what I experienced was normal. I still feel that It was not normal but hey they are doctors. I am still in shock that I am carrying twins and I can't bring myself to celebrate b/c I am scared that I will lose them. I am also angry b/c I have been through so much to get here and to have this scary thing happen it's like someone is playing a cruel joke. I'd like to add that the hospital beta was way off... they said my beta was 9722.0. I asked for my progesterone and estrogen and the doctor looked at me like I was crazy. The results from the RE beta was 11,487 progesterone was 3.8 a bit low but not below 3 and estrogen was 238. Today, I feel fine and no bleeding or cramps. I still want an explaination of what happened but I have to trust that the RE doctors know what they are doing and if they say I am ok then I really am ok.