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My Blue Angels

Jan 31, 2012 - 1 comments

I was just sitting here thinking that I can't believe I'm in my 19th week of pregnancy (my tracker is off).  On Monday I go for a fetal echocardiogram and my next ob/gyn appt.  I continue to pray that everything continues to go well.  

I still get worried about the little things and I am sure that is normal but the changes in your body are unbelievable  I worry Im not eating enough, gaining enough weight, etc.  I discovered the other day some weird markings under my breat nipples,not sure what it is but its almost like a black and blue mark.  They were sore and have been snice the day I found I was pregnant but it seems to be better now.  I'll ask he ob/gyn on Monday.  It's hard not to want to call her every five minutes with a new discovery or worry.  I keep telling myself its because you are pregnant and leave it at that.  

I finally picked out bedding, colors and everything for the nursery.  It's funny because I never expected to have boys.  It sounds odd but even as I was picking out my donor, I only thought of how my pretty or attractive my girls would look - I looked for the donor as a girl donor only lol.  I never said I wonder how a boy will look from my donor.  I think I never once thought about being a mom of boys, kind of strange I guess.  I always thought of my children being girls.  I guess I should have been a little more open minded.  But I am so happy to have my blue angels in my life and look forward to experience motherhood with them.  

We are still struggling with another boy name, just can't come up with one that we both like.  I know we have time but I feel bad referring to them as Michael and "what's his name."  

My baby shower is booked for April 14th.  I'm excited, I never dreamed I would get this far and I am really looking forward to it.  I haven't bought one baby item myself yet, still feeling nervous about jinxing myself or something.  

I started to clean out what was our computer room for the boys.  I am so tired all the time, I do one thing and I'm ready for a nap.  I find this the most frustrating, losing control of everything.  I've gotten better with time learning the last few months there are things that are going to fall behind and I have to learn to accept and walk away.  I'm guessing this is just the beginning though.  

The one good thing is without having classes I've had more time to do my writing.  I already wrote one story for my boys explaining how they came to be.  Just one in a series I plan to write, each one being age appropriate.  I don't write for children usually so its been a challenge for me.  

I didn't watch the Dr. Oz special last week.  I have it on my dvr but not so sure I want to watch it.  From what I've read online here, there seems to be a lot of disappointment in the negativity of the show.  Who needs that after all tha we've been through to get here.  I may not watch it ever.  

Anyway, I will write about my appointment on Monday.  It's going to be a long day.  I'm tired already and I still have to work from home today starting at 4.  

I hope all of you ladies who are ttc, hang on to your dreams and never give up hope.  To all of the women who have recently gotten their BFP's, congrats and enjoy it as much as possible.  For everyone I hope good things are happening in your world.  

Joann xoxo

Team Blue!

Jan 23, 2012 - 14 comments

Hi Ladies,

Just got back from my ultrasound and we are having twin boys!!!  Everything looks really good, I will be doing these ultrasound almost every week because I refused the amnio.  But so far, everything looks good and I have to fix my tracker, because I'm actually 18 weeks and 1 day.  

I am so tired now, it took about two hours long to do all the measuring of each boy.  So now I'm going to relax for the rest of the day and try to come up with one more boy name! I'll take suggestions!

I hope good things are all happening in your world!
Joann xoxo

Wishing you All Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!

Dec 21, 2011 - 4 comments

I am happy to say I am done with school, yay! Now that is behind me I should have more time to keep up with everyone and check in more often.

On Monday we did our 12 week ultrasound for Nuchal testing.  Thank God everything went well.  I did get some new pics so I will post them too.  I can't believe how big the babies got since the last time I did an ultrasound at 9 weeks.  It's very exciting to see them move all around.  Baby B did a few somersaults to entertain us - actually baby B was giving the tech a hard time for measuring because he couldn't sit still.  Yes, I know I am referring to baby B as a boy.  I don't know why I just have a feeling he is a boy and baby A is a girl.  We will see lol.

I am still feeling really sick most of the day.  It is most difficult during work unfortunately.  I am trying to hang in there from what I hear another few weeks and I should be feeling better.  My leg is still causing problems and that is mostly at night.  It's very painful and again just trying to deal with it.  

I have never been so tired in my life either.  I find myself taking naps in the afternoon because I just can't stay awake.  When I get home from work, I have no energy.  It's been hard letting things go too.  I like things to be in there place and lately housework has been pushed aside.  My husband has been a huge help though, so I can't complain.  I just don't like having control lol!  I never expected to feel this way but from what I've been told its a little tougher carrying twins then a singleton.  I've been trying not to complain too much because I am grateful I am finally here so I will put up with this as long as I have to.  

My belly is growing!!  I'm already in maternity clothes - that was pretty much right away.  I have a hard time finding petite sizes though. I have to tell you ladies, I am so happy to be seeing so many BFP's!! What a blessing for all!  For those of you still ttc, please hang in there and remember you will get there!!

I want to wish you all happy holidays and the best new year ever!!


hello ladies!

Dec 06, 2011 - 0 comments

Hi Ladies, how are you all doing? I've been trying to pop in and keep up with everyones progress.  I'm sorry if it takes me days to answer you all, I've just had morning sickness all day long! I'm tired most of the time too.  Thank God I am only working part time.  I give you ladies credit who are working full time while pregnant!  

I had my first ob/gyn appt last week and everything went well.  I go on 12/19 for the next ultrasound and the nuchal testing.  I pray that everything is alright.  I really can't wait because I haven't seen the babies for awhile now.  

Anyway, I have only a few more weeks of class left and that's it for me for now.  I have to finish up some reading and take a quiz by midnight, so back to work.  

I'll be praying for all of you ladies! You are always in my thoughts and prayers.  

xoxo Joann