Oct 05, 2010 -
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Tags: 13 dpo
So I gave in and tested yesterday at 12dpo. It was a BFN. I have pains and signs every now and then that AF is on the way but the other months was way more obvious to me than it is this month. This has been a long hard journey and Im so close to just giving up. Me and my fiance are not getting along lately and I feel like this whole ttc thing has a lot to do with it even though he wont admitt it. Im really thinking it may be over between us. We just cant seem to get along and he says little things that hurts my feelings then he cant understand why Im hurt. The things he says has nothing to do with tcc but other things like he is an entertainer and he has a show coming this Thursday he told me he didint want me to come and that hurt more than anything I can remember. I cried myself to sleep thinking about that and he doesnt know that. I just feel like we are drifting apart and I cant deal with a break up and another BFN. Maybe God is showing me that he doesnt really want me to have a baby by my fiance IDK. I just have to pray really hard on this one and ask God to show me the path he wants me to take and that i am obedient enough to take that path even if its not what I want. Im just getting older and I really dont feel like I have time to meet another man fall in love get married and still go thru TTC. What do I do???? Well good luck to everyone and SSBD! God bless