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13 dpo

Oct 05, 2010 - 8 comments
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13 dpo



So I gave in and tested yesterday at 12dpo. It was a BFN. I have pains and signs every now and then that AF is on the way but the other months was way more obvious to me than it is this month. This has been a long hard journey and Im so close to just giving up. Me and my fiance are not getting along lately and I feel like this whole ttc thing has a lot to do with it even though he wont admitt it. Im really thinking it may be over between us. We just cant seem to get along and he says little things that hurts my feelings then he cant understand why Im hurt. The things he says has nothing to do with tcc but other things like he is an entertainer and he has a show coming this Thursday he told me he didint want me to come and that hurt more than anything I can remember. I cried myself to sleep thinking about that and he doesnt know that. I just feel like we are drifting apart and I cant deal with a break up and another BFN. Maybe God is showing me that he doesnt really want me to have a baby by my fiance IDK. I just have to pray really hard on this one and ask God to show me the path he wants me to take and that i am obedient enough to take that path even if its not what I want. Im just getting older and I really dont feel like I have time to meet another man fall in love get married and still go thru TTC. What do I do???? Well good luck to everyone and SSBD! God bless


12 dpo

Oct 04, 2010 - 0 comments
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12 dpo

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progesterone



Today is 12dpo and I have not tested yet. I spent the weekend trying not to think about it to much and it helped me not test 50 times! I feel like AF is coming though Im starting to feel kinda crampy and all. The progesterone test came back that I ovulated so thats good. Oh well I think my period is due wed or Fri at the latest and I think I may just wait to see if its late before I test....IDK but I feel like AF is coming so  no need to see a BFN again this month.

9 dpo

Oct 01, 2010 - 5 comments
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PCOS

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9 dpo



Today is 9dpo. I dont know how I really feel about this cycle this month. I wanted to test this morning but decided to wait it out a couple more days. Im so use to seeing BFN that I feel like I always get myself worked up for no reason. Lately I have had no AF pains really just mild stomach cramps here and there. i did have some AF feelings before my HCG injection and I felt a lil off like my period was gonna come early. The last 4 days I have been hungry but I have no appetitate no taste for anything and i only ate to keep myself from dying lol. That must be the metformin. I had a estrodial test done on Wed to see if even ovulated and the darn clinic still says my results are not in WTH!! i mean at least if they tell me I dint ovulate I can stop thinking about this whole TTW thing!  Im really going to take a break this next cycle this is just all to much to bare. I told God that If this is not it i wont get mad at him this time I will just take it as he doesnt want me to have a child now and try my hardest to know his plan is perfect and he knows whats best for me. I need lots of prayer ladies that i will just stay strong and continue to fight this battle knowing that I will win. SSBD to all! God bless

cycle day 13

Sep 21, 2010 - 2 comments

Expect to ovualate anywhere between tonight and tmrw evening. Just heard from the Dr that I am insulin resistance. I made them check for it! So if I hadnt when would they have tested?? So irritated with these Drs!! Now I wish I had taken the metformin all this time but I just started back taking it about 3 weeks ago so i dont know if this will work this cycle. My tummy is already have AF symptoms so i dont know what to to think. Just gonna hang in there and hope this is it!! SSBD to all! Trusting in GOD and standing on his promise!!