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My Topamax Journey

Mar 15, 2011 - 1 comments







wellbutrin sr


Topamax/Wellbutrin Combination

Pretty much the same as the last one. I'm getting more used to the symptoms of the buzzy/shock things and tracers.

My doctor has added Wellbutrin SR 150 to the mix. I've noticed a complete loss of appetite with this mixture. I now have to force myself to eat. If I smell something good I may become curious and go taste it, but there's not much interest, really.

I'm still on the Ativan, for another month. They barely help at 1mg.  He told me to take 2 if I needed them. Gee thanks, so then I'll run out even faster.

He added some sleeping pills, Temazepam, 15mg. I asked for them. They don't work either unless I take 2, which I do. Sorry doc, I told you my body doesn't respond to low doses of stuff. I guess he doesn't believe me. At least he tries to help. I'd rather sleep well for a couple of weeks and be effed for the rest, than sleep like shite for the full month.

Bipolar/headaches are doing ok,) but could be MUCH better) if the stress of my Ahole brother and sister would step in and help with my mother. I have used quite a few of my Maxalt's lately compared to hardly any before this whole mess. Anyway, she's finaly out of the hospital, and back at home, and I have disowned the two useless clods.

Weight, 142. I see my goal weight of 120 becoming a reality now on this medicinal mix. I bought a 2 month old violet pied lovebird to keep me company. He/she keeps me good company and is quite friendly.

Topamax Journey February 17

Feb 17, 2011 - 0 comments

I have not posted in a long time. My mother almost died on Jan 13 and it's been a long month. My doctor has had to add Ativan to the mix. I have been stressed to the gills and don't really have much to report other than a younger brother and sister who can see their way out the door since I have been the only one helping my poor mother with her illness and her needs since all of this started. I'm sure they'll both be there though with their hands held out when the check is finally cut on the dreaded day. It makes me so sick I could spit in their eyes. Yet I'm a PsychoBitch for stating my opinion of both of their actions, or lack thereof as the case may be. Seems to me I'm the only sane one left in this grievance aka our family.

So a rundown:

Topamax 100mg 2x day I take mine at 9am and 9pm.
Ativan as needed
5MG(15,000Mcg) Biotin to ward off hair loss, has worked after figuring out the dose I need to keep it from falling out in large amounts.
2 Tablets Super B Complex to ward off hair loss, has worked in conjunction with the Biotin.
1 Chromium 1,000 mcg per day to help boost weight loss.

Some word loss/searching for the right vocab word, sometimes replace it with a lesser choice. I read the dictionary to combat this and this has helped immensely.

I am seeing some tracers at this dose, especially at night like when I get up to go to the bathroom. Colorful.

Funny buzz/shock sound/feelings sometimes when I move my head. Too hard to describe. Similar to SSRI brain shocks that I had when I took high doses of Prozac. 80mg.

Slight tingling in fingers and top of head

Twitch under right eyelid, unsure if this is medication but has coincided with the last dosage increase.

Slight strange taste in mouth. Just brush teeth a lot. Kind of a carby/cheesy taste if you will, if you let it go for too long. Or suck sugar free mints. I gargle with hydrogen peroxide since I'm a germophobe plus it makes your teeth white.

Sexual dysfunction. 1rst and 2nd gear work ok, but where did the other gears go??? We got from point A to point B, I know this because I got out and parked, but somehow didn't notice the ride. I don't even bother with it anymore, too annoying, too disappointing.

15 lb weight loss so far.

My Topamax Journey Jan 13, 2011

Jan 13, 2011 - 0 comments


Trying to adjust to the 200. I thought it would be easier than it is so I'm a little surprised at the cognitive part. It's making me loopy, the tingling in my fingers is a little bit worse than before and my hands and feet (mostly toes) have seemed a colder. My scalp tingles a little too. Funny thing, I have the beginnings of a migraine and am getting ready to take a Maxalt, boooo. Feels like it might be a bad one, too. Ugg.

Weight 147.

My Topamax Journey Jan 11 2011

Jan 11, 2011 - 0 comments



rude nurses


rude medical personel

So the Doc upped my dose to 200. 100 2x a day. Some new nurse today, she was a total b!tch for some reason, no clue why because I wasn't rude. Usually the nurses are super nice. "He'll be with you shortly" she says all snotty, and slammed the door so hard that it rattled. WTF?? So I yelled THANKS B!TCH. Life's too short and I'm too f*cking old.

Will update soon how the 200 is going. He told me that's the max.

Weight 149.