Aug 26, 2015
I came so close to acting out tonight. I know I am experiencing withdrawals. No doubt my affirmations have worked. But I think recognizing that Im going through withdrawals will help. It should also help that after ten weeks of dieting I have lost ten pounds and have gained a lot of self control. I can resist eating unhealthy foods. I don't HAVE to have sweets. I think SA will be the same way. It was difficult at first, but now it is easier if not easy.
I am viewing SA the same way. I need to lose all of this excess chemicals that I desire. I have found myself at a wall. I need to break through! What does that look like? The next 15 days will be looking free.It needs to be in order that I move forward through this wall. Thank God I haven't acted out like I have...and not since two weeks ago! But in order to take the next step I need to SUCK IT UP AND DIG IN!
I have lost interest in YouTube for some reason, BUT THIS IS GREAT! Just Tennis videos. No more ministry for a while. My ministry will have to be SW.
There is plenty of new things in my life to distract me while I dig in: tennis, sw (to GET OUT OF NABISCO!)
Though I have not been perfectly clean, I have accomplished much. Much for my level of acting out. Now it's time to take the next step and break through this wall I have meet.