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Keep Keeping On

Aug 22, 2015 - 0 comments

I took my 'skirting' a little further yesterday, though I didn't look as long. I guess my tracker is one of progression more than perfectly clean days. At this point, maybe it's okay as long as it's progress. I hope I am not compromising!

I am doing affirmations 3-4 times a day. I believe that helps me remember certain truths in the midst of being tempted and preoccupation. It's experimental at this point.

I'll keep keeping on!

Not So Bad

Aug 20, 2015 - 0 comments

I thought about it some more. I shouldn't be too hard on myself. I have resisted to a degree. I havn't had the usual acting out. So maybe I'm heading in the right direction. I just need to continue to replace the bad behavior. I need to trust more...despite the pain temptation brings -not in its absence.

I'll continue to do my affirmations so that I can remember what is important and can bring it up when I am tempted.

Fourth Day

Aug 20, 2015 - 0 comments

Fourth day in a row I have played around for hours on the lines of my boundaries. I may have even stepped over it.

I'm not sure what it wrong. I'm not sure what to do. Why can't this just go? Maybe I'm tapering instead of cold turkey. Maybe I need to think about a filter. No, there are so many other ways I can act out. Guess I just need to continue affirmations and maybe add visualization. My faith isn't strong enough yet.

No Porn, but not really a successful day.

Duplicate of Yesterday

Aug 18, 2015 - 0 comments

Today has been a duplicate of today. I "skirted" the boundary. Though, again, I didn't technically view "porn". I BELIEVE I MAY BE ENTERING INTO the DETOX STAGE.

Why is 'My Home' not working? It figures, everytime I set out to do something good, something MYSTERIOUSLY goes wrong. Yesterday it was FocusMe. Good grief!

Anyway, I need to keep fighting these urges. My viewing anything is sabotaging my progress. It may not be reinforcing viewing porn, but it sure doesn't help leaving it behind.

Need to trust in order to move forward. As far as I'm concerned, I havn't walked backwards, but I am standing still.