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Aug 14, 2015 - 0 comments




I'm trying to remember to believe God every day - Everything he has told me. I need to trust in Him with all of my heart and all of my mind.

The past two days have been incredible. I have had SOME cravings, but have also kept my mind out of the gutter. I have kept from dwelling on particular SA thoughts that have seem to just come to me.

I know scientifically if I reject a SA though withing a second, my brain will not act on it.

But I also know that I have to REPLACE the thoughts and not just "Don't do it". My replacement is trust in God.

Keep my thoughts and heart on Him.Put trust in the being God!

Aug 13, 2015 - 0 comments

I have to type this before I forget and fall victim again to the porn. I have only on thing to do. IT'S NOT EVEN TO HAVE FAITH; IT'S TO PUT MY FAITH IN GOD! There is a difference.

Keep my thoughts and heart on Him.Put trust in the being God!

SA Emotions Diminsh Critical Thinking

Aug 13, 2015 - 0 comments


I find that when time has passed from my last period of acting out, feelings begin to wash over me at some point. It confuses my critical thinking - the critical thinking that aloud me to think clearly of what was REALLY going on right after the moment I finished acting out.

So it seems to me that I must work even harder to focus on and fight through those SA emotions to keep critical thinking remember!

The critical thinking that is diminished is:
Belief in God: what He says about everything
He will take care of me,
that I can give it up and everything will be fine,
that he will provide as he did for Elijah
It is sin
It ruins marriages, careers, and lives

Don't do...just believe in Him and his words! The longer I believe the quieter the SA emotions become and louder critical thinking becomes.

Belief Helped with Today...a LOT less work too!

Aug 12, 2015 - 0 comments


I know I need to stop trying and start believing. That has always been the most effective method. Other methods work, but it is SO much work and last a little while.

Belief is power! It is the most simple of all methods. Belief got me through today.

BUT I HAD TO DO IT ON PURPOSE!. I'm sure after a while belief will be second nature, but for now IT TAKES CONCENTRATION!

Tomorrow I'll talk more about belief.