i'm scared, okay? at the same time i'm peaceful.
i just found a new band and i'm in love.
i don't know i'm going to make it. but I said I will. just please, please don't interrupt this trip. don't tell my parents, don't tell anyone.
and in exchange i promise to get help when i get back. but i might need you to come with me. because i'm terrified, okay? i'm a wreck.
occasionally i get glimpses of the future and its strange. like i used to have this thing where for a second i would feel exactly as I had before, it was as if my soul was back in that body, that reality, for a second. its so hard to describe.
anyway, its happening again, but this time to the future i think. its strange, but good i guess?
we couldn't figure out why i have a problem with these things being official. i'm just not sure i could bear to know?
i don't know. please stay with me.