Yes it's been a long time since I've posted anything let alone a journal.

But I have a question, and I'm hoping someone can shed some light.

I had blood work done a couple weeks ago. One of the tests was C Reactive Protein. Which checks for inflammation in your body.

According to my results, it is slightly high. The guideline that the lab follows says normal results should be under 5. But my results came in at 5.3.

My doctor wasn't concerned about this and said no follow up was necessary.

What do you ladies think? Any experience with this?

Yesterday my hubby drove my inlaws down to the hospital for a check up. I now know that my FIL has thyroid cancer. They were supposed to do a biopsy of his thyroid and then go back in a month to get the results of that biopsy. That would have told us if the radiation worked or not.

Unfortunately they can't and won't do the biopsy. It was not the news we were hoping for. The Dr says because of all the weight he's lost, his thyroid is "falling" and it's sitting too close to his windpipe. If they go in, there's a good chance they could knick it, cut it, or it could collapse. I was thinking to myself and I said to my husband, I've never heard or seen anyone losing so much weight that their organs/parts "fall". What would be the odds that it's "falling" because of the nerve damage he suffered when he had the surgery? I would be more inclined to believe that as that would make more sense.

But I guess the reason why doesn't matter cause it's not gonna change the outcome.

So basically all we can do is make him as comfortable as possible and let him live the rest of his days. How long will that be?! Who knows. Could be 6 months, could be 6 years.

Sad day....

So it's been awhile since I've done an update on my FIL. I haven't been on much lately cause it feel like I've got so much going on.

So anyway, dad has done 2 full weeks of radiation. Originally we thought he was just doing it twice a week for 6 weeks. The cancer must be more aggressive then was originally thought because he has been doing it EVERY day (mon-fri) since he started. And doing it for 6 weeks. So instead of doing 12 treatments, he's doing 30.

He's decided that he doesn't wanna do it anymore. His thinking is why bother? It's not helping. But mom is telling him to continue with it.

Honestly I don't know how I'd be if I were in the same situation.

As far as the nerve damage in the face, the surgery didn't fix anything. He can't talk very well now cause that side of his face doesn't move.

Does anyone have any tips/ideas on how to deal with separation anxiety? Preston is suffering terribly with it.

The first day he went to the babysitter's he was fine. I don't think he realized I was leaving him there for a few hours. Since then, it has progressively gotten worse. Yesterday morning for instance, it took me 15 minutes to put on a pair of pants on Preston. He kicked and screamed the whole time.

He gets so worked up and hyperventilates that he makes himself puke. Once he's there, he's okay. I make it a quick drop off. She gets his coat and shoes off and quickly whisks him off to do a craft or have a snack so it takes his mind off it. She says he has some sad moments like when the other kids are having a nap and he just has quiet time cause he doesn't nap.

I feel bad and hate seeing him like this. It's causing arguments with my hubby. But he needs to get used to doing this. If he was going because I had a job, he would have no choice but to go. And he needs to get used to being dropped off cause he goes to Kindergarten in September.

If anyone has any suggestions, please let me know.

Thanks