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Have to start over

Mar 03, 2011 - 2 comments
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My neighbor came out with a handful of cigarettes when she open the door.I ddint have to go over but i just wanted one.  I think I have to break the rest..Yup..now I want 2.  I'm gonna smoke one more then break thenm into little pieces.  i hate smoking. I'm going to the gym later, so that will help me breathe.  That's what it does for me.  Tricks me into not holding my breathe.  It's so annoying.

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the 4th day

Mar 02, 2011 - 0 comments
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It's always hard for me..I knew it yesterday and I almost made it..then I had one before school.

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Carmel Tootsie Roll Pops

Mar 01, 2011 - 0 comments
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I love them, but i wish I had some money for apples and carrots...sugar sugar sugar. I think my body likes it though since they say cigarettes are  made in sugar some how.  Whatever..they last a long time and for now it's what I have!!

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I'm not gonna starve myself.

Feb 27, 2011 - 0 comments
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It's hard to stay under 1700 if I don't go to the gym.  I only have to burn 400 calories when I go, and I usually burn 900.  But as soon as I hit 1900 and don't go to the gym, that's it.  i just have to keep learning about food, and different ways to cook.  Even though  that meatless meal crashed and burned, I baked this chicken the other day that was hella good, brussel sprouts. And I moved furniture around so even if I do have to work all day, I can jump rope on my breaks.  I'm good.  I love this website!

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