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haha oh boy

Jan 23, 2016 - 0 comments
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Eating disorders

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Death



well another one of my grandparents died so my mom is going through a lot. im falling back into eating disorder hell and star wars is kind of all i have to cling to right now, but i guess that's something. people are starting to realise that i'm not okay but the rest of my friends are having a hard time as well, so i'm kinda just trying to keep them afloat. i have therapy on tuesday and i feel super bad for not asking for help yet but i think i will soon.

star wars chewing stim toy

Jan 20, 2016 - 0 comments
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special interest

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Star Wars

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pdd-nos

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PDD

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Autism

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ASD

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Autism Spectrum Disorders

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stimming

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chewing

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sensory

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SPD

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stim



if anyone is interested in a 'bightsaber' you can find them on the arktherapeutic website!

(i'm adding all these tags so that anyone who might want one can find it)

i should be happy, but once again am so numb

Jan 20, 2016 - 0 comments
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qp



she said yes, she is my qp! it's very exciting! i've also started watching x-files and i feel something semi-platonic maybe happening with nico!! i've been very tired lately and i fell asleep on jo's shoulder during class, that's what qps are for i guess. i've only been thinking of killing myself, not actually wanting to as much, and i'm definitely not self harming as much.

sorry i haven't been updating this

Jan 17, 2016 - 0 comments
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PDDNOS

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ASD



i've been super overwhelmed lately. i haven't self harmed in over a week but i'm constantly fighting it. we went to a furniture store and i felt like i was going to have a meltdown the whole time because i was super overstimulate, but i didn't tell anyone so next we went to a super loud restaurant. i finally had a meltdown when we got home because i was super frazzled and then my mom told me i couldn't use the fabric i wanted for my kylo ren costume and she told me to use a trench coat instead. i had already planned the whole thing and i'd been thinking about it all day and then she tried to convince me that she knew more about kylo ren than me and i got really mad which i guess is a little self-centered. now my mom is still watching the shows about sexual assault and it makes victims look like helpless little kids and it makes children seem like they don't understand when people talk to them.