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Jan 09, 2016 - 0 comments
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Star Wars

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special interests

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PDDNOS



i'm seeing star wars again today! i think it might be a good day. i've been really anxious lately and only really talking to my brother and josephine (my cousin). there are a lot of shows on the television about abuse and sexual assault, but it makes me feel better about my situation for some reason. i guess that's kind of sick.

i'm pretty excited to see star wars though, i might bring my action figure (i've been bringing him everywhere with me anyway). i had to come home sick from school yesterday and my stomach is still a little off, but i'm going to go to the movies anyway. i wonder if everyone will scream in the theatre like they did the first time i saw it, that was very loud and stressful. when the millennium falcon appeared everyone was super psyched!

i'm going to be pretty happy when i get to see kylo ren again though! it's too bad that josephine doesn't like him, at least she lets me talk about him constantly though. oh! i also got a cool extension at https://www.google.com/starwars/ where my gmail loading screen in a lightsaber now!

okay, i'll probably update this later, even if it's mostly about star wars now. i have something other than sherlock to learn more about! two special interests is better than one!

excitement rising

Jan 06, 2016 - 0 comments
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Star Wars

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school



my kylo ren figurine came!! i've been carrying it around in my coat pocket all day! i'm finally getting back into the swing of school too! my mom might go into outpatient soon and i might start attending al-anon soon? i'll check in more tomorrow.

update

Jan 04, 2016 - 0 comments
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Star Wars



i haven't been writing in this as much as i did for the first few days, i just haven't felt like it. i have school tomorrow which means getting some reading and drawing done until one of my teachers decides it's time for me to learn something school related. i got a new coat that's very big and goes down to my knees, it makes me very happy! i also ordered a kylo ren figurine which will be here by wednesday, i'm very excited about that! i'll finally be seeing josephine again tomorrow, it's been so long. i haven't really talked to any friends face-to-face for about two weeks. hopefully i can get through the next few days with minimal stress until my psychologist appointment.

post-funeral

Dec 30, 2015 - 0 comments
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hopelessness

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fears for the future



josephine said we would live together once we're both out of school, but honestly she's going to mature so much more and i'm not. i will probably never leave the house, be an awful human being in general, and then die.