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May 14, 2014 - 1 comments



Tramadol Detox



Ok I have gone down to 100mg a day. 50 in the am and 50 in the pm. I didn't sleep very well last night, with restlessness a thunderstorm and a scared panting dog in the bedroom, omg!
I did manage to eat bacon and eggs today, but am still quite nauseas.

I'm going to try and nap this afternoon, since I don't have an ounce of energy.
Also, I'm very proud of myself for keeping calm and doing my best to be grateful for small accomplishments.

Tramadol withdrawal

May 13, 2014 - 1 comments

tramadol withdrawal








Back pain


Chronic Pain


tramadol addiction

Well here I am, basically back in the same place I was 3 years ago.

Unfortunately after coming off of morphine, my back pain was intolerable and couldn't cope.
I ended up on Tramadol, which I didn't realize was actually more addictive than morphine.
I did ok for 2 years, this med gave me pain relief, a boost in my energy, and my mood. My mood was so good that I ended up coming off of my antidepressant. I thought this drug was marvellous, but it's not!

This year it stopped working for me, and I was at the max dose of 500mg. The Tramadol wasn't helping my pain, the depression came back and of course, I had no energy. It has been a very long cold winter, and I've been miserable.
Over the last month I have been able to taper from 500mg to 150mg. At 150mg, the withdrawal symptoms started to kick in. Yes kicking the habit, gives you those horrible restless legs, insomnia (I had a few hours of sleep last night)
Extreme nausea, headaches and the chills. It feels like a horrible flu that you can't get any relief from.

I've started reading Emily's journal (who detoxed off Tramadol) I wished I had read it a few years ago!
It has lots of info, support and other peoples experiences getting off this nasty drug. I can't believe some people were not taking this drug for pain, and they've ended up addicted to this drug. They say it's the worst opioid to come off of, because it is not a natural opioid like morphine, it is synthetic and also has an antidepressant. This means when you detox, you are really coming off 2 drugs and your brain is totally screwed up.

I knew I was in big trouble this winter, when nothing would help my back pain. Apparently it is the drug, saying "take more of me to get relief!"  I didn't give in, one of the side effects of this drug is seizures especially if you take more than 500 mg.  I did end up needing morphine to get me through the rough days. I was extremely upset, really annoyed since I had worked so hard to come off morphine 3 years ago. Needing the Morphine was the point when I knew that I would have to come off Tramadol, but wasn't sure how or when?

My family Dr. has put me back on Effexor since my mood was so flat, and I was extremely anxious. I will probably need to stay on Effexor until I'm off the Tramdol for at least a year. I'm also trying Baclofen (a muscle relaxant) to see if that gives me some back pain relief. But it is also a drug you must taper to come off; I'm just so sick of drugs.

I know I want to come off this drug, but the timing just ***** right now. Summer is just beginning, which I love, and I don't want to miss out on another summer, like I did three years ago.
(Since Winter started in November and lasted until the end of April!)

I've been going back and forth with my decision making?
Should I detox now, since I've dropped my dose, and go cold turkey? Or should I stay on a small dose this summer and finish the detox in October? I suppose I could try to do a really slow taper, but if I'm constantly sick, that wouldn't be my choice.

Well, I guess today, my thought is to do a very slow taper from 150mg. But I could change my mind, depending on my patience level? I may just scream, and say "get this f***** drug out of my body".

I need sleep.

Jun 04, 2011 - 0 comments

I am very proud that I have made it to day 5 of detox
But it hasn't been fun. I finally had a little sleep last night, 4 hours.
I feel like I'm living in a fog cloud, and I'm exhausted. Luckily
smoking pot has helped me with the back pain when I'm desperate.

Luckily my husband is home now, and is giving me some care :)
I'm trying to go to a wedding shower tonight, the only bad thing is
that I have to drive and i'm feeling so nauseas!

Morphine Detox

Jun 03, 2011 - 0 comments

Back pain





June 3 2011 Day 4 of Detox

OMG, I think I could handle the detox if I could get some sleep?
After being on morphine, and various other opiods, for 4 - 5 years from severe chronic back pain,
I can't handle the side effects any more.  
My dr. doesn't think it's a good idea, and says I should try another drug. But right now, i say, enough is enough!!

The last 2 nights were hell. I was up all night. Even after smoking pot,taking sleeping pills and ativan I still could not sleep.  The restless leg syndrome is very real (total aggravation)  it doesn't hurt it just wont let you relax.  
I ended up taking a bath a 6am this morning, which helped my legs a bit. And then I was able to get 3 hours sleep.

I am very nauseous and have no idea what to eat?
It is so beautiful outside, but I feel to ill to do anything.
I hope I have the Will power to do this, I feel like my family has abandoned me, and I could really use some tender loving care at the moment. Luckily my husband comes home today, I hope he can give me support.

Well, we will se what the day brings.
Sue D