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Echo Today

Apr 03, 2013 - 1 comments

So I pushed my electrophysiologist to get another echo, since we are coming up on 2 years since my last one. I hate tests... They scare me like crazy and waiting for the results, well its just torture but... It was my idea so, this afternoon I go for my echo. He thinks one every 3 years is fine etc.

Still have this stupid eye twitching, going on 3 weeks now (off and on). My primary care said its seen a lot and no biggie, I go to see my eye doc this weekend for my annual eye check up and will mention it to him too. But when I called, they brushed it off too, said it super annoying and super common. That bothers me too.

I always fear the worse case scenario and am never able to just "wait it out and see." All part of my anxiety no doubt. While my anxiety is general is much better (I no longer have panic attacks thank God) when it comes to my health, it spikes. I have been like that for 7 years now. I notice my body sensations, google (yea I know I shouldn't but I can't help it) and of course Dr. Google always shows most horrible results. LOL FEAR FACTOR!

Working out is going great. I workout typically 5 days a week, sometimes 6. Monday and Tuesdays are my 2 hour nights, pretty intense stuff, Kickboxing, weight lifting, RIPPED and Body Step. I probably burn over 2,000 calories in those 2 nights alone. Wednesdays is zumba, so is Thursday. Friday I run 2 miles on the dreadmill and Saturdays is Zumba and weight lifting. My rest days are Sundays  It feels great, I am still not where I want to be and I still have 25 pounds I need to drop but I am getting there. My blood work came back and my cholesterol dropped 21 points (which it wasn't considered high to begin with but I watch it since it runs in my family). It also dropped my HDL which they said is normal from cutting out fats etc.

So seeing results is very nice. I am hoping within the next 6 months I will be where I want and need to be.

Anyway, heres to getting a good email from my electrophysiologist telling me the echo looks good and hopefully I can move on from this a bit more

Just an update

Jul 20, 2011 - 1 comments

Hi friends :)
I have missed you all, I hope all of you are doing well. I am going to try to read up on everyone's journals to see how you are....
Dad had his first chemo yesterday. He is taking 2 chemo drugs, one they give him over an hour or so then the other he wears a pump for 46 hours that slowly introduces the drug. He will repeat this process every 2 weeks. So far, no side effects but it's so early in the process, we are not sure what will come of it. He hasn't been able to eat solids in some time so, his stomach being upset, we aren't sure if its the cancer or the chemo but he has meds to take for it either way. Now I just hope this does what it needs to and allows him to enjoy things again. I hope and pray.
As for me, I am doing ok. I woke up early yesterday morning with what seems to be a Urinary Tract Infection. I called me doctor she prescribed me an antibiotic since I couldn't make it in to see her yesterday. But why is it that I am still freaking out?  This health anxiety gets the best of me and I think it's something so much worse then that. Yes the antibiotics are already helping me but I start thinking its cancer or something else. Then I wake up last night feeling "pains" all through my stomach. Nothing severe, just enough for me to notice and I start thinking I am feeling pains because I have other things going on in my stomach area. Grrrr this health anxiety is sooo frustrating. Then my knees were aching and instead of me contributing it to walking 3 or so miles a day (and my getting older), I think it's some sort of bone cancer.  I had an xray done 3 months ago when I fell and that would have shown any such thing but I can't seem to get my mind away from it. It's very annoying. It doesnt' bother me all the time just lots of times when I am trying relax or sleep. That is when things will "hurt" the most etc.
I haven't been able to afford to see my therapist as much as I would like to but I am starting to thing I need to find a way. I need that guidance and that peace of mind she brings me.
So... thank you for listening to me rant and rave. You all are amazing, I pray for you all nightly, all of my DS friends and I am very blessed to have you in my life.
xox ~ Dani

Good news but why do I still feel bad

Jun 09, 2011 - 2 comments





Panic Disorder



So.... From what I have read, the heart pains I have felt are either Precordial Catch Syndrome or truly and Muscular/Skeletal thing. Almost feels like pinched nerve... It pinches and feels like a stab right in my heart. And my stupid anxiety / panic make it so much worse and make the pains way more intense.  My Primary care doc is awesome... Said it's for sure not my heart and that she will go to the ends of the earth to figure out what it is. Told me yesterday to go home, take a Xanax and relax and that I will be fine. Love her... so very happy to have found her.
I guess this is good news right?  She is running all the test to make sure. I am on my acid reflux meds to see if that helps. I go for the Chest Cat Scan tomorrow to rule out anything with the lung. Both cardios said the symptoms I am having are not from my heart that my heart looks very health.
So, then why when I get a super sharp pain, does it throw me into a panic attack and then the pains keep coming?  why then can't I just accept that they are non harmful and we are working on figuring them out? I don't understand it.... I just want to be able to accept what I am being told and move on with my life but instead I dwell.  I know once I find the answer (which to be honest, there may never be one, we may just rule everything else out) I will be ok but not knowing seems to drive me insane. :(
All of you out there, with your support, you are all amazing, thank you so much... I am so glad to have all of you as friends and have you on this site, it brings me SO much relief xoxoxxo

Heart Pains

Jun 08, 2011 - 0 comments

Heart Pain


Acid reflux



Well my Primary Care and my Cardio (both the EP and Regular) say the pains I feel in my heart are not Heart pain. Possibly Acid reflux or some type of Muscular/skeletal thing.... I am trying a 2 week regime of anti acid pills to see if it helps it, if not, I will get a Chest Cat Scan... Just annoying, I really would like some answers now but the good thing, it's not my heart... :)