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May 04, 2013 - 2 comments

Wow talking about pain and emotions..... I am so sad and emotionally drained right now. One of my old boyfriends and whom was still a dear friend was found murdered today. He was run over , stabbed and stuffed in his trunk. How can the human race be so cruel. To take a father away from his children. There are just no words to explain or no way for me to understand the tragedies we face in  our life. But for sure I am not numb I am feelings and it hurts like hell.... I cant tell my fiance how upset I am for some reason he would think I shouldn't be. Guess its  good thing he is mad and staying at his moms. Bc I have been crying and just looking at pics of my sweet friend and his family for hours. Thank you all for your support thru my journey... GOD BLESS YOU


May 01, 2013 - 0 comments


So I am struggling to even move today.  I have 0 energy.  I had a very emotional dsy yesterday and last night. I have been in a rocky marriage for some time now. He is now out of the house. I am just afraid this is not the time  to be making decisions. I am afraid I will never feel normal again. No energy and no sleep. I am hopeful bc of seeing the success of others but im so afraid I will never feel normal again. I am sticking to my taper and have no desire for the pill just wds