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If they only knew....

Aug 10, 2011 - 0 comments

If they only knew how hard I try to be normal. How I try to keep up with them shopping and I am telling myself I can do it and agonizing over each step. But also how I appreciate it cause someday that may be gone as well.

If they only knew how I push myself to get out of bed when its just about the hardest thing I have ever done just to be able to do something with them, because I enjoy spending time with them.

If they only knew how I stress about the fact I am not out there making meals, doing laundry and keeping the house clean

If they only knew how I make an effort to walk normal so I wont embarrass them.

If they only knew I really dont have what it takes to stay employed. But I love to hang on as long as possible, so they can have the things that make them comfortable.

If they only knew how hard it is to keep anything straight with fibro fog.

If they only knew I feel unworthy because I dont do that much for them anymore...

If they only knew the only reason I live is for family.

Trying to get something done

Jul 10, 2011 - 0 comments


I understand that I need to pace myself but after 2 flares in one week I have some serious picking up and laundry to do. I put on the tens unit and took my prn med and have been trying but the pain in my hips and legs is almost too much. I am resting now but I have so much left to do today.


Jul 10, 2011 - 0 comments


Sleep pretty well, not sure why, but it was nice

slept horrible

Jul 08, 2011 - 0 comments


was awake off and on throughout the night. Would wake up in weird twisted positions with muscles tight. Very tired in the morning and sleepy all day