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starting over..

Dec 08, 2013 - 0 comments

guess its not such a bad thing.. its just i'm so disappointed in myself for losing all my clean time.. i ready.. one day.. only one day.. at a time..

Where I am proud of myself

Mar 31, 2012 - 0 comments

I am proud of myself for hanging in there and being so strong and not returning to my old friends and using crack or any drugs.. (even though cigarettes are considered a drug that's my down fall now again). I have made great success and will keep up the work on staying clean and sober.

Disappointed in me..

Mar 31, 2012 - 0 comments

I started smoking cigarettes again. I thought I had it made.. it had been over 6 months that I had quit them. I had no desire or taste for them and then things really just built up.. I don't get it.. stress had built up on me before and I didn't think about them but not this time.. The craving started in for about about a month and I gave in.. I want to try again to quit. I go to see the doctor in April and will talk to her and see what suggestions she has.. I don't want to go through this back and forth stuff. Yes it does help relieve my stress but, my health is more important..

I'm just so disappointed in myself..

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still making it without smoking

Oct 07, 2011 - 2 comments

it's now been 3 weeks and 1 full day.. i rarely think about wanting to smoke.. if i do its if i am bored or drinking coffee or just finished eating something.. what i do instead i just keep straws with me.. sounds silly, i know, but i will chew on the end of the straw.. i try not to hold it like i would a cigarette the whole time cause the cigarette is the habit i'm trying to break.. anyway.. think i'll be quiet now..

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