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Nov 07, 2011 - 1 comments
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Had two exams, went to one, couldn't cope with second exam so didn't do it. Scared about the consequences...
Doctors app. at 4.10pm. Been put on Pristiq. Yay?


Edit: Had first dose of Pristiq at about 7pm tonight. I felt very sleepy about 20 minutes afterwards, scatterbrained, slightly 'woopee' (but tired so not physically woopee) and had some trouble stringing my words together. Very thirsty.

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Friday Sep 23rd

Sep 23, 2011 - 4 comments
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Back from my holiday to the beach w/ boyfriend. Went okay, except that we started drinking and that didn't end well. Not sleeping well, freaking out at 'things' in the dark again. Dream-/nightmare-filled sleep, not fun. Trying to finish off cleaning my room. Going out to a party tonight, not allowed to drink.

Oreo (my now lonely rat) is crabby...

EDIT: Remembered that Tuesday afternoon I felt very manic. I was cleaning up my room like crazy (think I mentioned that in Tuesday journal), then bf turned up and I wasn't ready, so I ran around getting dressed and packing my bag. He let me drive over to the island and I was talking so fast, couldn't concentrate, my eyes were flicking around everywhere and I felt my skin crawling sometimes. Felt like running around in circles and felt twitchy. I made bf put on some music  which seemed to help me concentrate better. I couldn't get my words out fast enough, stuttering and stumbling over the words and phrasing my sentences so badly that he couldn't really understand what I was trying to say. It wasn't fun.

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Tuesday Sep 20th

Sep 20, 2011 - 0 comments
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Cleaning

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Felt very ****** this morning. Woke up about 8.45am by Dad...felt an invisible physical pressure on me and didn't feel able to get out of bed. Lay listening to music and chatting on FB for an hour or so until about 9.30am...called boyfriend and eventually got up. Went on computer for a while, trying to cheer myself up. Talked to an old friend. Had some toast. Had a shower about 12.30pm and called a friend, started cleaning room which got easier and easier as I went along (surprised how much I got done). I feel great now. Having some spaghetti and still listening to music. Thinking about this morning is bringing my mood down a little bit though. I'm missing Twinkie, my pet rat who died. She wasn't even a year old. Sigh. I'll keep cleaning

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Monday Sep 19th

Sep 19, 2011 - 0 comments
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Monday

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Exercise

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walking

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painful

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mountain

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breathing

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help



Did some exercise today (walking up a mountain trail for ~35 minutes w/ boyfriend). It was difficult, my legs went to jelly and breathing was very painful and wheezy. I need to get fitter. Felt pretty good after going for the walk and everyone says that exercise will help make me feel good. I guess they're right but it's hard to get motivated/find the time. Even though I felt good after the walk, I still felt hollow and empty inside. Bleh.

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