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Sep 19, 2008 - 0 comments

I had Lymes when i was 12 in 1988. It took a year for them to relize what i had and then they gave me one month of normal antibiotics......i nevr followed up.....went on to be pretty normal for 10-15 years.
About 8 years ago i started to have severe dry eys....real bad....i went to lots of doctors and never really mentioned that i had Lymes years ago because i thought that had been taken care of. I ended up having to get ductal plugs in my eyes (didnt really help to much)
Then i was having numbness and weakness in my hands and feet and top of head (again lots of doctors and reaserch) never thought to mention Lymes.
I also started having lots of memory loss and the dry eyes and pain in eyes and joints and hands and feet continued.

I got to the point where i couldnt kneel down or if i sat for a couple minutes...i needed help getting up (only 30 years old)

I freaked out and went to a doctor and said "Look i had Lymes 20 years ago and maybe there is something to that , but something major wrong PLEASE test me for evrything include Western Blot test"
I made it very clear that there was deff something wrong.

2 weeks later i went back the doctor read the results right there with me for the 1st time...he is a busy doctor and he never had time to look at them before i got there.
The look on his face when he read it really scared me.

He said wow! you have Lymes...maybe you got it again and maybe this is left over from years ago. He sent me to ID doctor and they put me on antiabotics for a month again.

Stll feel real bad and have noticable problems that other 33 year olds do not. I hope there is something more that can be done...I am really worried about what this will turn into. I already feel like i have Alzheimers because i cant remeber things right after i say them and i get confused for no reason out of nowhere. I am a large contract foreman in the Washington D.C area and it has started to affect my job.

Any further info you come across would be a big help.....



Sep 15, 2008 - 1 comments

Wow....this is getting a little hard....Been off Subutex since Friday morning @ 4:00 am.......It Monday @ 8:00 pm......

My doctor told me i should do like 1 mg for life because of the damage to my body from disease....A part of me thinks hes right because i will always have to go back to pain pills....and i will never be able to do them the right way....

Just some thoughts

Sep 13, 2008 - 1 comments

remeber the good times and walking outside and smelling the air and feeling the weather and falling in love.
I think the fact that we all loose that urge for sex really shows how evil and overpowering these drugs are.

The world really feels diff when you stop the pills.

It's like you were in jail the whole time.

I wonder if there are people that i deal with at work that have this same problem and nobody knows.

I wonder why so many people are so understanding now that i have come out with this problem i had. Its like they have been thru it too.

How come doctors dont put up a fight to keep you on pain pills....They would fight to keep you on other meds.....I think they know how horriable these things are.

I always felt like the pills gave me enrgy ,but i never did anything really when i was on them. Its only when i quit that i get any real things completed.

Are these really the devils candy ?       YES

I hope i can stop someone else before they even start.

I hope it works....

Sep 12, 2008 - 0 comments

I'm at about 22 or 23rd day of subutex treatment. I am down to 1 mg a day and i think i'm going to try not to take it again and see if i can do it. I still have some if needed if i cant do it.
I have read so much on here about sub and most of it all says 21 days is the way to go. I was going to use the sub as long term pain man....but i really think that is not the way to go.

The subutex has worked great at getting me off of the Oxy Percs and such.....but i dont want to trade one for the other. I needed to stop counting pills and doing to many and the sub worked great for that. I never counted them and i never did to many.