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Miracles Happen... even to me!

Nov 24, 2013 - 15 comments





subchorionic haemorrhage

OK... so 4 days ago we had a 75/25 percent chance that I was carrying a blighted ovum. The doctor wanted to give it a few more days...
Today we had our scan... And FOUND our baby and a strong heartbeat! We were all stunned! I started sobbing and laughing, I just couldn't believe it! Baby is measuring 9mm so Dr thinks he/she is about 10 days behind. Things look OK though, apart from a large subchorionic haemorrhage below the sack (the reason behind my spotting). So back resting until scan next Sunday. Whatever it takes. We are so happy today! Miracles really do happen. Hoping the haemorrhage will not cause problems.

Miracle Pregnancy is a Blighted Ovum

Nov 21, 2013 - 6 comments

blighted ovum


miracle pregnancy

OK so last night we went for our 7 week scan. I was feeling positive and upbeat since the bleeding had stopped. The doctor did a transvaginal u/s and was measuring the sac etc... He was very quiet which isn't like him. I could see the sac on the screen, nice and oval with a little yolk, but that was all. Then he told me to get dressed and go into his office. I knew something was wrong... He hadn't mentioned the heartbeat? So he told us straight... There was no embryo and no heartbeat. Devastation and disbelief! We listened to what he had to say... Basically I could do a blood test to check beta hcg level straight away, or wait and do another scan on sunday, I opted for the scan as wanted to cling on to a little hope. He said it looked like a blighted ovum, and gave us a 75/25 percent chance. If he's correct in his diagnosis on Sunday, he'll give me medication to bring on a miscarriage. I am absolutely dreading it... I went through this last year and it was truly awful. We came home and cried.

Deep down I know this is the end of our miracle pregnancy. I should know better than to hope, things NEVER go the way they should for us. We have gone through 6 years of infertility, 6 rounds of IVF, one FET cycle, one miscarriage, soon to be two... Our Miracle Pregnancy... And still no baby. I think we are meant to remain childless. I feel so desperate and empty. So now I know why I had so little symptoms.. And today they seem as though the few symptoms I have had have completely disappeared. I am going to throw myself into the cleaning... Music blaring... I need to keep occupied.

Miracle Pregnancy

Nov 15, 2013 - 4 comments




I'm going to start to write things down... I don't want to forget a thing...

So we were due to start a FET cycle Nov 2012... our last... but my period was late by a few days. I'd been put on Metformin late Sept as my blood sugar wasn't great, not diabetic, but high nonetheless. So I just thought my period was messed up with the medication. I was impatient to start the FET cycle, so called my gynaecologist to see if he could give me something to hurry my period up... no way could I be pregnant! So he told me to do a beta hcg test, just to be sure... yeah no need I thought but here goes...

October 31st 2013 - Halloween... beta test comes back at 80!!!!!!! What?!?! I was in total shock! In fact I didn't believe it, thought they'd mixed up the results...

Nov 6th 2013 - having no symptoms and so scared something is wrong, just kept thinking of miscarriage last year when I had symptoms and they went away. So went for another beta... 698! So it's doubling as it should, I'm definately pregnant! Now I have to wait until Nov 20th to see my gynaecologist for first scan. It's going to be a long wait.

Nov 13th 2013 - 7.30pm preparing dinner, go to the loo and my pants are covered in pinkish/red blood. I freak out, call out for my husband and tell him we have to go to the hospital... I think I might be miscarrying. At the hospital the doctor gives me a scan, we see the sac but also a subchorionic haemorrhage and the sac has torn away a little from the uterus. Doctors tells me to rest, that it usually reattaches, but I am so scared. Beta level is 8127... still doubling. When I get home I lose more blood, this time it's bright red and fills a sanitary towel. I spend the next 48 hours in bed scared to move.

Nov 15th 2013 - today - the bleeding has almost stopped, just light spotting, brown blood. Had beta rechecked... it's now 13800... so still increasing. Can't tell you how relieved we are baby is hanging in... our little fighter. Taking no chances so taking it easy for the next few days until the scan.

Immune Issues

Nov 21, 2012 - 1 comments


Turns out I'm positive for anti beta 2gp1 antibodies which could be affecting the implantation process etc. For my FET I'm taking baby aspirin and Lovenox, as well as estrogen and progesterone. I'm hoping that this'll make the difference.