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I have posted here over 6,000 times!!!!

Apr 06, 2008 - 8 comments

Thats scary... I decided to see how far the post history in my profile went back.. it goes all the way to my first post ever when I was scared and didn't know what to do.  It was like a journey back through memory lane. Made me remember how great this journey was and how many great people I have been in contact with because of this site.  I got to remember how wonderful the people that were here when I got here were... and how much I miss that...  It was just different. We did formal nightly check-ins that included everyone.. no one was left out.. there was no "newbies" or "oldies" we all were together as a team to beat this addiction we all suffered from. I have tried to be just like those people.. I hope I have carried their memory through to others here. I have tried no matter how I am feeling to reach out to someone else that might be doing worse off than I am. I hope I have remained true to that.

Surgery postponed, getting injections in back first.

Mar 31, 2008 - 1 comments

The surgery to remove the cyst in my wrist is going on the back burner for now. My rheum doc referred me to pain management. Went last week. Doctor is great. Understood my need to try non-narcotic ways to treat my pain. Suggested "cervical facet injections" they do it under sedation. And they do the right and left side on separate visits about a week apart. I am hopeful and grateful that someone is offering me some suggestions instead of my rheum doc just saying that "without opiates my hands are tied" Damn doctors only know how to write scripts. I avoiding the whole pain management thing for all these months thinking they were just gonna write scripts. Now I am thinking differently. Maybe this can help someone else out there struggling with pain.
Hope everyone is staying in the fight.


More personal journal entry

Mar 13, 2008 - 4 comments








I am approaching 9 months off of pain pills and anxiety meds. My clean date is the 15th. This forum helped me more than I can even say. I have been a member here for 14 months.  
Those that know me know I also struggle with pain daily. I have learned new ways to deal with it. I finally got into some serious stretching at home that has really helped alot. As well as doing some light strength training, mainly using my body for resistance and building my core to help.
Over the past several months though, I have had more and more problems with my hands and wrists. Swelling, tight over stretched tendons that feel like rubber bands. And more recently that has keep me from the computer and this forum. I have a ganglion cyst the diameter of a quater directly on top of my radial artery of my left wrist. It gets bigger as the day goes on and has gotten more and more painful over the past month. I have began getting numbness and tingling in my fingers and dropping stuff constantly. My rheum doc refered me to a ortho hand surgeoun, because I have to have it surgically removed. *****....:( I am trying to put it off a few weeks so I can get all my clients in order so I can take the time off needed to heal after wards. Being a hairstylist and make up artist its hard to take time off. And when you are off, you don't make any money. Luckily, I have insurance through my hubby's work. But I don't have sick time or vacation days. I will have to be off for at least 2 weeks. And then wear a brace for 4 weeks after that. I am gonna attempt to only take 2-3 weeks off from work and make it work with the brace on. I don't know how much pain I will have after surgery. Hopefully not much. But they are slicing open my wrist and digging around so they get it all out, its apparently more tricky when its on the inner side of your wrist and right on top of your artery. These cysts like to wrap around nerves and stuff. If I do have alot of pain and have to take pills, my hubby and possibly my dad (may be flying in to take care of me for a few days) will be here to play nurse and hand out pills accordingly. It ***** making it this long to have something like this happen. I live with pain everyday. Now I am going to have more pain.
Luckily I am a fighter...  :)

I hope everyone out there in forum-ville is staying strong and keeping up with the fight.


Journal Disclaimer

Nov 30, 2007 - 0 comments

All of the entrys here except the one about Amino Acids, were articles I have found online. I do not claim to have authored any of the others except for the Amino acids entry.