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Oct 10, 2011 - 0 comments

Every so often I see that someone will post on a really old thread - my curiosity will always get the better of me and I'll start researching what was going on back in 2002...

I'll read how some poor guy is going through a tough w/d from Oxy or Norco or whatever, then they get a bit discouraged and then they disappear...

It makes me wonder what happened to them and where are they now? 10 years later are they still popping pills? Are they still alive? I hope they are recovered and living life but the way they drop off worries me...

That will not be me...

I did not use today and I don't think I will use tomorrow

The start of my story

Oct 02, 2011 - 1 comments

My adventure with Norco started about 4 years ago...

We were doing some heavy lifting at work and one of my friends handed me a yellow pill that gave me super human strength and endurance. I told him how stoked I was and he gave me a handful - this was my start...

The first year I would buy 20-30 a month and take 1 or 2 when I needed to take the edge off or when I was partying. I was always limited by my supply...

Three years ago I sought out my friend's supplier and started buying between 100-180 a month and I was off to the races. In the last two years I have learned about dependance and withdrawal firsthand. My relationships and life have suffered and it was all my secret. It's remarkable the things that I have done while out of my head and survived. You should try surfing 10' Cloudbreak on 6 Norcos...

About a year ago I realized that I was a prisoner to these farking pills - I was up to 8 pills a day and I couldn't travel without a pile of pills. I knew it was time... but it would take a while.

A couple of months ago I called my dealer (even calling him a dealer seems really weird) and told him I was over it - I tapered (which gave me mild to moderate W/Ds for about 30 days) and jumped last Friday August 23rd. I had moderate W/Ds for 3 days - then caught a bug (which really seemed to restart the W/Ds) and here I am at the end of day 9 feeling fine.

What the he** happened to me? Three years in a fog and isolated from everyone with my secret?!? Not a pattern I want to repeat anytime soon...

I did not use today and I don't think I'll use tomorrow...

In serving others we become free...          Later - Jay