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Thyroid med change... Again. June 8th.

Jun 07, 2012 - 0 comments
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Went to Dr. B.  He did not order new blood work for this visit. I told him I was still fatigued and tired even after I switched from Armour only to Armour in the morning and Cytomel in the afternoon. I also told him my brain is less foggy and working better.

He changed meds to Cytomel in the morning AND in the afternoon.  5mg per time, total 10mg a day. Cut Armour off completely. I feel relief for not taking Armour. I have the impression it was not doing much good anyway.

Truth is he's only after money... I think he kind of knows thyroid issues better than regular docs but he seems to be driven by money, mostly. Also he seems to only see the SAME kind of patient day in and day out and seems tired of it. It's annoying to go to a doctor who doesn't really give a s- about you, but I currently have no better option... My PCP wouldn't even know how to order what's needed or read it correctly (FT3 FT4 RT3 and so on)

He said my fainting was not over being hyperthyroid and that in fact I'm not hyper. Hmm... Okay?

Let's hope for the best, I hope to have my RT3 in the normal range again and to feel less fatigued.

Cut Armour, Cytomel only

Jun 07, 2012 - 0 comments
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Twice a day, 5 mcg.

(got it wrong = was supposed to be twice a day 10 mcg = 2 grains each time)

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Parosmia

May 24, 2012 - 2 comments
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After 5 days on Prednisone recommended by a non smell specialist, a neurologist, I started to feel a strange metallic industrial taste which seems to be whatnothers call parosmia.

First thought: I'm smelling! Second thought: parosmia :( Mi.

Couldn't find indications online that parosmia might be due to recovery start or so... Oh well.

I am feeling better on 5 days of lexapro, but incredibly sad for anosmia. No words can describe it. It feels so lonely, it's such a lonely ilness to have specially because if you haven't had it, you can't have a clue how sad it is. So no one close to me can get it or is that concerned. It's lonely. And... Devastating. The thought of living with it till I die is upsetting to say the least. I am not sure how I'll do it.

I had a revelation this week. I realized my family was what they called dysfunctional. I always thought parents were heat but realize now that bc my mom worked and I was around nannies, siblings most of the time, I didn't have hat a child needs, the nurturing, mirroring etc. Which probably results on all issues imhave such anxiety self doubt procrastination lack of self confidence... Altough you wouldn't guess if youn new me. It's the false self that took control of the true self. Probably most of my achievements were based on wanting to be good enough... So I could be qnd feel loved, the kind of nurturance I probably lacked in the first 3 years of my life.  I have a lot to read and understand but things are becoming clearer. I like understanding as it's easier for me to rationalize and know how to proceed.

Suddenly all my relationship issues along the last 7 years + make sense. The breakups. MY, I have tonadmit it, controlling behavior wanting to change people I'm with. My clinginess. Needy me. Glass Half empty me. Loving excitement at first and getting bored quickly.

Wth... Why didn't my therapist see it or if she saw it she didn't explain it to me? I'm pissed. I wanna work on feeling better. Hw can I if I don't know where it comes from? She kept saying I lacked self estime when I didn't think it was true. Never explained why besides saying my parents where not there.

I feel so lot and on the edge of a rope yet I have to work on my head... Not sure I have the street or patience left. Now that I need it the most.




Neurologist

May 18, 2012 - 0 comments
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Went to neurologist referred by PCP.
I wanted him to check if I had symptoms from head injury.
Instead, he was convinced my problem is migraines. Say what?

He didn't care I said I don't usually have strong headaches. He said migraines is not only about headaches.

My light and sound sensivity, even the fainting...? Migraines! Syncope? Migraine!

Hmm... I tried to extract details from him.... He said would he ask me how to build a building? (I'm an architect)... meaning it's too complicated to explain in details?

He said my loss of smell is bulshit... Cause the brain is not that delicate? Hmm?

Oh well.

He gave me a few medicines as predinasone (heard it's good for smell too). Also told me to use lexapro. What? Hmm it prevents migraine... Oh well...

Also Co Q10 that smell doc also gave me... And magnesium oxyde.

To return in 3 weeks.

Oh well. Now this too... Dont know what to think...